Thank you so much!! I've felt crazy alone in this...
I also found out (when I got there) that my appointment is actually for THIS Friday, not last (oops)! So I have a bit more time to formulate what I'll be talking to him about.
What you are describing to me seems like an usual presentation for bi-polar. Most bi-polar depressions present with an "atypical" presentation (number 2). PTSD is more likely to present with number 1's. PTSD can present with severe and sustained changes in affect as well as swift changes.
Totally. I
am very sensitive to rejection (number 2) but that's also a symptom of BPD. I have difficulty getting to sleep, but I think that's more ADHD as I can sleep more easily when I
am on Adderall (as I'm calmer and can shush my brain up more). Most issue with sleep is not actually GOING. I have problems with feeling I've done "enough" in a day. When I am emotionally charged at night: I stay up, upset. When I'm doing well cognitively/emotionally/etc: I stay up and try to "hold on" to it, too afraid to sleep, least I wake up and my confidence, momentum etc be gone. But I'm usually thought of as a "naturally" happy, grandiose-ish, talented, outgoing ADHD chick.... who has emotional problems and has been messed up. I'm kinda match all of Histrionic too... so... there's that..
PTSD is highly comorbid with borderline traits to the point they can be indistinguishable.
SSRI's can have some seriously negative effects in BPD and in PTSD(borderline personality disorder(BAD (bipolar affective disorder)).
Yeah. I guess "Complex PTSD" is now in the ICD-11, but here in the states they say "complex trauma", which is PTSD + dissociative and/or personality disorder/s.
Would it put someone into a hypo-manic state tho, if they did not have Bipolar? ....
Maybe I have both BP2 & BPD??Summed up in to a few words: your presentation is not the right type of depression, not long enough and to up down and left right to be a pure BAD disorder.
Exactly. My moods can change sometimes hourly if it's a bad enough day. And it's not JUST a manic to depressed scale. My other emotions swing too.
I am still uncomfortable with the idea of you on stimulants, although you have managed to convince me you likely to have some kind of attentional deficit - although its more likely mediated though the PTSD than being ADHD. If you could obtain guanfacine for example this might be a better way to manage the attentional problems and will regulate higher cognitive functions without causing tolerance, addiction and irritability or making your illness more severe in the long term.
Does guanfacine have effects on dopamine as well? From what I see, it says it
might have a
little effect on it. I ask because that's definitely been huge for me. With the increased dopamine from the Adderall, I'm able to more easily feel/celebrate my own accomplishments, have more positive emotional and physical effects from exercise, and have less generalized pain (due to dopamine's pain regulation actions). One of the first signs that the Addy's wearing off is that my knee will start hurting. I completely agree that that I want to make sure I don't get worse long-term. That's actually one reason I didn't run to L-Dopa, as I've heard that the body stops making Dopamine when supplemented directly in a far faster and greater way than from using a re-uptake inhibitor.
A mood stabilizer hear is clearly going to be of primary importance. Lithium I think is your best choice. I also stand by the suggestion of aripiprazole. Combined its going to have an awesome kick. An antidepressant due to bipolar like symptoms is just not going to be a good idea. Instead of pregabalin maybe guanfacine would be a good idea or atomoxetine.
Awesome.
Do you suggest starting with Rx Lithium, or OTC? The Trileptal seems to be helping somewhat at this low dose for mood stabilization.
Your hormones are gonna be fucked. PMDD is probably not a problem with you, rather hormones having a normal effect added on top of your already serious problems.
OMG!! You're awesome. lol! and yeah. Makes total sense.
Omega 3, B complex, vit C and a multi vit is a good idea.
I've Fish Oil and Krill Oil, sub-lingual B12. Looking into getting a better muli than I use now. I have B complex and I'll usually either take one of those a day or a few of the Focus Factor I'm trying out (has a good amount of C and B vitamins). It is strange what works sometimes for my moods. Fish Oil, B complex, niacin, pregnenolone (which works amazing, usually), DHEA, iron, potassium, low carb, glucose tab, magnesium, choline, a mouth full of coconut oil.... ugh.. maybe I'm just incredibly sensitive to every little freaking thing.I *was* told to read "The Highly Sensitive Person" because as my last therapist said "your sensory system is ALL messed up, girl". (No therapist at the moment... no cash, insurance or job...)
I'll write another post with some more info on my Adderall experiences (in case that helps)...
Edited by TheSpartanWoman, 20 March 2013 - 11:12 AM.