Yeah FeelsNumbMan I know what it's like when the depression takes you to a place where hope doesn't abound. You feel too defeated to get your energy together for another battle, you know you have to try something else, but there's not much hope. Also, you're afraid to try something, because even if you don't have much hope, you still have a little and you don't want to lose it if it doesn't work. It's a shitty place to be.
I can't be certain if sarcosine will work for you, but I think you have better than a 50/50 chance that it will, so you've got to try it. You'll know in 2-3 days if it's going to work for you once you try it. You very well could have a decent next weekend if you place your order tomorrow. Try it before you go back on the NSI, I don't think you'll be sorry if you do.
Yeah... It really sucks. And if I were to talk about it to someone who isn't suffering from it, there's no way that they'll ever truly understand what it's like. It's like telling someone how it feels to be on ecstasy (but worse) but there's no way to really understand it unless you've experienced it first hand. I've tried a good amount of nootropics, things that were said to help out with depression. Things like aniracetam, noopept, rhodiola, inositol, uridine stack, L-theanine, sulbutiamine, 5-HTP, L-tyrosine, and more and nothing has really done much for me. The only few things that were truly noticeable are better off not being taken on a daily basis... Kratom and phenibut. Even so, they no longer work anywhere as well as they once did, but it's not like they were the answer in any way. Not even close to helping my anhedonia and apathy.
There's a lot of things going around talking about depression but the reason why I ask for people's experiences with depression is to see if it might help out the symptoms I'm suffering from. Things like anhedonia (pleasure) and apathy. It seems like these two are more "overlooked" than depression -- but I'm trying to stay optimistic that if something were to help depression, it'd help these two symptoms as well.
This thread has a guy talking about his experiences with sarcosine and such, and it gives me even more reassurance. Some of the symptoms he's going through are the ones I'm suffering from as well (not feeling connected, lack of emotions, lack of enjoyment in music), etc. The benefits he listed would definitely be something I'd enjoy. In fact, any benefits or progress would be really nice...
http://www.longecity...recovery-stack/
Something that he mentioned that I could definitely relate to is that he said he didn't really look for help or researched up much until he went through that burnout... So he was living for weeks and months while suffering but not feeling motivated enough to do something about it. It's something I'm definitely feeling myself... and I tell myself I'll do it eventually and the days, weeks, and even months just go by before I even know it.
Looking around for sarcosine experiences and it seems like there's a lot more positive than negative (if I actually saw a negative report).
I only hope that if sarcosine is something that works, that you don't have to keep on dosing every day or every few hours. Do you think it has some long-term benefits? Also, what's your dosage and ROA? Sorry if I'm bothering you man. I'll definitely try sarcosine before NSI again.
Really eager to just find something that works. Or at least something that keeps me going until other things come out. I know I've tried quite a few things but still, there's a whole lot of things out there that I haven't tried. And the thing I'm looking forward to is ALKS-5461, something that works on your kappa-opioid receptors. It's interesting to me because it actually talks about anhedonia, and that's a key word for me.
Area-1255, thanks for the reassurance. I also have some OCD going too, which is probably one of the reason it's hard for me to get around and ask for help or type stuff up.
I'll definitely report back on how I feel when I'm on it. When was it before you started to see results, datrat? Again, really appreciate it all.