So I've been dealing with a situation for a very long time, and I've come to the end of part of it (if the treatment remains therapeutic. TBD). If you're interested in the details you can find them here, here, and here.
So basically memantine has "cured" me of my disorder, or at least is treating it to a level I honestly wasn't sure was possible. I'm operating at around 85%. Pre-memantine with everything else I was taking I was probably at around 20%. They all "helped" but it was nowhere even close to the level of memantine, it is clearly directly treating my dysfunction.
But now I want to know why. This is obviously an incredibly serious problem and now I can finally understand and realize that as my brain is actually working again and I need to get some serious attention brought to this as soon as possible. Things like Huntingtons Disease are popping up with frightening familiarity, but I also resonate with PAWS (Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome); which is usually from hardcore alcoholism or benzo abuse which I've never been apart of, but I have been a weekend binge drinker consistently for about the last 9 years and up until recently I was completely trashed around 3-7 times in a month. I also smoked a lot of weed when I was ~17, until I was around 20 or so. This issue began to prevent me from being able to tolerate it.
So NMDA receptor antagonism is apparently my thing. Glutamatergic overactivity is likely a cause I assume.
It's comforting that nothing showed up on my MRI so I guess I can definitively say it's nothing neurodegerative. It is just so, just mind numbing that something so substantial could come from neurotransmitter problems. I mean it was hard-core cognitive impairment. I felt like a mentally impaired human being. If I didn't experience it myself I wouldn't have believed it was possible without some sort of substantial physical deterioration.
Anyways, just grasping at more straws here and hoping to pick the educated minds of the members of longecity. If anything rings a bell for you it could mean a lot to me.
And I just wanted to say thank you to this entire community. Without you guys and without the long archived history of discussions on longecity I don't know where I would be, I owe you guys a whole lot.
Cheers