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To Sleep or not to Sleep continued
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zoolander
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07 December 2007
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Day to day Journal (when I can be bothered)
After using the CPAP for over a week now I fully understand how people find it hard to tolerate. I'm up and down. The days where I get sleep and can keep the mask on for most of the time is likel a different world for me. I'm fully functional. Well to be honest I thought I was fully functional before but now I have a comparison and my good days are amazing days. Everything seems to click. It all flows. The words. The ideas. The bullshit.
The days were I woke up without the mask on are bloody terrible. I don't remember taking the mask off but my partner will tell me that I've taken it off early into the night at say 11pm, which is roughly just over an hour after I have headed off to bed. I can remember taking the mask off but I can't remember leaving it off. I just fall asleep and forget to put it back on. You see it's hard to fall asleep with the mask on and when you take it off there is a weird release and you feel super tired to the point where you just pass out. Anyhow....I sure notice a difference if I wake up with the mask off. Those days are a struggle. It's really dissapointing because I thought the struggle was normality. Now that I know that it isn't normality I have a "not normal" and "normal" comparison that always makes the "not normal" harder to deal with. A great deal of the misery is in knowing that you could have the "normal" but you don't".
I had another sleep study the other night. This time it was the sleep study plus the CPAP. I wasn't looking forward to this. It's hard enough falling asleep with the CPAP and now I have to try and fall alseep wearing the CPAP plus electrodes attached head to toe, respiratory belts and pulse oximeters and so on attached. I knew it would be hard so I pushed myself during the day so that I would buggered during the evening. I didn't do anything out of the ordinary apart from not taking an afternoon nap so it should really compound the study. Suprisingly, I feel asleep quite fast and stayed asleep for a good 4 hours. I woke feeling very refreshed. I should get the results for this back in a few weeks.
This morning I woke up and the mask was not on. My first response was "Oh shit" knowing that it could be an uphill battle for me today so I worked a few things. I took a half tab of thyroxine, 1mg of deprenyl, morning supps and a strong espresso. Hello!
I got to work and it's being go go go from the moment I arrived. I don't know if that's just me or if it's really happening. IT's lots of fun though. I'm all over it!
The days were I woke up without the mask on are bloody terrible. I don't remember taking the mask off but my partner will tell me that I've taken it off early into the night at say 11pm, which is roughly just over an hour after I have headed off to bed. I can remember taking the mask off but I can't remember leaving it off. I just fall asleep and forget to put it back on. You see it's hard to fall asleep with the mask on and when you take it off there is a weird release and you feel super tired to the point where you just pass out. Anyhow....I sure notice a difference if I wake up with the mask off. Those days are a struggle. It's really dissapointing because I thought the struggle was normality. Now that I know that it isn't normality I have a "not normal" and "normal" comparison that always makes the "not normal" harder to deal with. A great deal of the misery is in knowing that you could have the "normal" but you don't".
I had another sleep study the other night. This time it was the sleep study plus the CPAP. I wasn't looking forward to this. It's hard enough falling asleep with the CPAP and now I have to try and fall alseep wearing the CPAP plus electrodes attached head to toe, respiratory belts and pulse oximeters and so on attached. I knew it would be hard so I pushed myself during the day so that I would buggered during the evening. I didn't do anything out of the ordinary apart from not taking an afternoon nap so it should really compound the study. Suprisingly, I feel asleep quite fast and stayed asleep for a good 4 hours. I woke feeling very refreshed. I should get the results for this back in a few weeks.
This morning I woke up and the mask was not on. My first response was "Oh shit" knowing that it could be an uphill battle for me today so I worked a few things. I took a half tab of thyroxine, 1mg of deprenyl, morning supps and a strong espresso. Hello!
I got to work and it's being go go go from the moment I arrived. I don't know if that's just me or if it's really happening. IT's lots of fun though. I'm all over it!
