time balancing

Warning: This will top, even the most 'verge-of-whiny', 'soul searching' blog you've ever read.

Yes, I see blogging sort of as a diary, talking to myself-along with countless others from all walks of life, socio economic status, ages, areas of the world, religious and political beliefs.

I'm not really trying to tackle big issues, do any research or pull any statistics. I concede that there are many more interesting and important blogs here at ImmInst, this one is not one of those...

I just want to vent, rant, speculate... sort of 'e-therapy' for my current point in life...

Why, all this veiled, convoluted introing?

I'm simply way over scheduled in life right now, and feeling overwhelmed with it all-I don't know how others cope-by others I mean those that get an incredible amount done, those that get more done than I. They are my heroes, they are my inspiration--they also make me feel like I'm not good enough--since I wish I could do more.

I am the vice president of my daughter's middle school PTA.

I am the secretary of the board for my 900 member church.

I lead La Leche League meetings monthly and answer calls/emails daily from mothers who are needing help (they often are in emotional distress and I must drop whatever I'm doing to be there for them).

I am one of 3 leaders, and a teacher for my church's summer camp.

I teach religious education on Sundays.

I'm a director here at ImmInst, and support life extension in what ways I can--helping those also in the field.

I'm the social action chair for my roller derby league.

I'm the co-chair and secretary for my church's children's programming committee.

I have three children, I read to the youngest daily, parent all three-break up fights, inspire/teach/encourage them daily along with feed etc.

I have a husband who also needs love and attention daily.

My above list focuses on time output. It in no way addresses the ways I support around 20 organizations and non-profits regularly financially.

I just get really frustrated that I never seem to have enough time to do anything to the best of my ability, I'm always working on deadlines--living from deadline to deadline-and wishing I had more time.

Time for reading, time for writing, time for my family, time for my volunteering

It is this crazy balance to me, how use my time to help the most people, in the most effective way.

I have come to a point where I realize I'm actually volunteering for to many things, and in a year when some of my commitments are up-I'll be more careful about taking on so many.

I feel if I focus on less, that I can do more Say, 2 board positions instead of 5 like I'm currently doing .

Also, my children take precedence-- and I know that I need to balance things so that they have more of my time.

Writing all this has been cathartic, I suppose it makes my priorities more clear. I don't expect others to really read it Seems sort of boring, and a lot of whining to me.... but hey, since you are reading it--thanks Not sure if you helped me feel better (my expectations of what others might think), or if I did, simply by writing.

Life is fun, getting a lot done is rewarding--me being an immortalist makes me feel like my time is so short, I think I put more pressure on myself to accomplish more... I'm proud of all that I do, and I know that I need to do less