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Working on an NSW
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03 October 2012
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no social working
NSW NSW
Trying not to go into social working mode. Someone I think a lot of is having financial issues, probably because he doesn't know his own value. He might also be able to get a lot more money back from his taxes if he knew more about it. I want to help him but I should work on own problems, which seem insoluble. They seem hopeless, sticky, stinky, unattractive and worn out. It's so much easier to solve someone else's problems, especially a young person who might lack the perspective you have. I could think of a way for him to more than double his salary and maybe get a thousand dollars back from the government. I did help one guy make his dreams come true; get his dream job and a visa when he didn't think it was possible. I'm very clever and I've been around the block a few times. When it comes to getting stuff from the government; few do better. Which is why it's so tempting to try to help other people rather than attend to my situation. I'd rather succeed than flail around. Trying to keep on track. NSW NSW. I hate to see a guy doing without when he deserves better and could get it, but NSW NSW.
Too bad. I'd be happy to be paid for my freelance, unsolicited social work but . . . outcomes are uncertain and cannot be guaranteed. It's so attractive to help a person with a bright light around him succeed, rather than look at the stinky worn out remnants of my own life and it's worn out battles. How do I feel about it? I left it long ago. I don't want to go back there. --Do not research the tax stuff, do not do that when you are missing a meal. Take your supplements and use your time out of the house on you, there are errands that are undone. --Ugh! Fuck you! I don't want to do that. I'd so rather look up tax laws. Wouldn't it be cool if we could all help each other and get paid for what we want to do. Like a Society, you know? Yeah.
But anyway. How do I feel about my own life. I feel it pretty much sucks and is hopeless. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. It sucks.
OCTOBER 3, ON THE POSITIVE SIDE
I unfollowed a number of threads where the original poster was not seeking health. One guy was in bad shape and wasting tens of thousands of dollars doing foolish things while his health declined. I was as insistent as possible, but I had to stop posting there when it was clearly unwanted. Whew! That felt better not to feel responsible. It's not on me. Some people don't want health; strange as it sounds. So be it. I did a number of things towards my NSW. I spent yesterday on myself. I could remember more of the NSW things I did if it wasn't for this loud sucky music in the Apple store, but I did them. It feels good when you pull your energy away from others back towards yourself.
Each day I will try to inhabit my space and bless others to follow their paths without being responsible for them, or letting them take me off my path. The Lord will sort it all out.
Trying not to go into social working mode. Someone I think a lot of is having financial issues, probably because he doesn't know his own value. He might also be able to get a lot more money back from his taxes if he knew more about it. I want to help him but I should work on own problems, which seem insoluble. They seem hopeless, sticky, stinky, unattractive and worn out. It's so much easier to solve someone else's problems, especially a young person who might lack the perspective you have. I could think of a way for him to more than double his salary and maybe get a thousand dollars back from the government. I did help one guy make his dreams come true; get his dream job and a visa when he didn't think it was possible. I'm very clever and I've been around the block a few times. When it comes to getting stuff from the government; few do better. Which is why it's so tempting to try to help other people rather than attend to my situation. I'd rather succeed than flail around. Trying to keep on track. NSW NSW. I hate to see a guy doing without when he deserves better and could get it, but NSW NSW.
Too bad. I'd be happy to be paid for my freelance, unsolicited social work but . . . outcomes are uncertain and cannot be guaranteed. It's so attractive to help a person with a bright light around him succeed, rather than look at the stinky worn out remnants of my own life and it's worn out battles. How do I feel about it? I left it long ago. I don't want to go back there. --Do not research the tax stuff, do not do that when you are missing a meal. Take your supplements and use your time out of the house on you, there are errands that are undone. --Ugh! Fuck you! I don't want to do that. I'd so rather look up tax laws. Wouldn't it be cool if we could all help each other and get paid for what we want to do. Like a Society, you know? Yeah.
But anyway. How do I feel about my own life. I feel it pretty much sucks and is hopeless. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. It sucks.
OCTOBER 3, ON THE POSITIVE SIDE
I unfollowed a number of threads where the original poster was not seeking health. One guy was in bad shape and wasting tens of thousands of dollars doing foolish things while his health declined. I was as insistent as possible, but I had to stop posting there when it was clearly unwanted. Whew! That felt better not to feel responsible. It's not on me. Some people don't want health; strange as it sounds. So be it. I did a number of things towards my NSW. I spent yesterday on myself. I could remember more of the NSW things I did if it wasn't for this loud sucky music in the Apple store, but I did them. It feels good when you pull your energy away from others back towards yourself.
Each day I will try to inhabit my space and bless others to follow their paths without being responsible for them, or letting them take me off my path. The Lord will sort it all out.
