DeGenisis,
I didn’t see your previous reply before I replied. I want you to know how much I appreciate you taking the time to reply to me and share your knowledge. I can handle a tough road ahead (such is life), but I’m stuck at a fork and don’t know which one to take.
I was only on about 15 mg propranolol. I can only handle 6.25-12.5 mg Atenolol or my HR goes down too low.
I was on Remeron for about a year. On the last month or two, I took it sporadically (4-5 times a week) and reduced it from 7.5 to 3.25. On February 13th, I took a dose 3.25mg dose with 5 mg melatonin and some magnesium after I took Tryptophan 1000mg the previous night, and within minutes I started shivering and had muscle jerks. My BP went up to 170/110 and my heart rate was 130 with arrhythmias (PVC's). I ended up in the ER. That was the last night I took Remeron. Interestingly enough, I took Unisom (doxylamine) and melatonin a week later and the EXACT same thing happened so I'm assuming that since both Remeron (low dose) and Doxylamine act on the 5HT histamine/serotonin receptors, I developed an intolerance or sensitivity to these kinds of drugs. Perhaps it was because I was already in withdrawal from the sporadic and fast taper off the Remeron in the previous month or two before I took it for the last time and ended in the ER.
This all happened about the same time I'd been using Klonopin .125-.25 a few times a week for about 4 months. From what I understand they have similar symptoms of withdrawal. So just to make sure I’ve stabilized at a low dose Klonopin and I am micro-tapering off from .150. The symptoms have subsided between the Klonopin and the beta blockers but they are far from gone. I am afaid I’m just masking the Remeron Withdrawal which may clear up in a matter of months with Klonopin which I will develop a new dependency on. I’m hoping that daily nmicro-tapering off the Klonopin will help prevent that from happening. I should note that I was on Klonopin for 10 years daily and tapered off in 2014 successfully with minimal PAWS, but it took me two years to taper off. So I’m scared of kindling.
My symptoms right after ceasing Mirtazpaine and ER visits which lasted for weeks and come back if I stop the K or beta blocker: Panic, dread, derealization/ DP, tremors, shivering, muscle jerks, insomnia, burning skin (esp ears), brain zaps, hoarse throat, brain fog, tinnitus, itching, tightness in chest/abdomen (not heart pressure), agitation, hyperarousal, sensitivity to sound, intolerance to heat and esp, cold, tachycardia, jumpin out of skin, arrhythmia, elevated blood pressure, lack of appetite. I lost 20 lbs in a matter of 4 weeks.
Now, with a stable but low Klonopin daily dose and beta blocker, my symptoms consist of: insomnia, anxiety, burning skin (not as much), itching, brain zaps, brain fog, tinnitus, agitation, slightly elevated bp but much better. I’m starting to exercise and eat better.
I've considered reinstating a lower dose Remeron but am scared that the same thing will happen. I've read that after a certain point in withdrawal, reinstatement can be more harmful than good as your body can reject it and one could have an adverse reaction. I think that's what happened to me when I went to the ER (possibly already in withdrawal) but I'm not sure. Do you have any insight into this? Do you think this could be more AD or benzo related withdrawal?