Only you know the answer to that question. For a person achieving greatness and glory this is an excuse to live a medicore existence because the game is rigged against us, Obviously I could complain about it, but that doesn't solve anything now does it? I would say, it's an excuse for are failure and accepting your own defect is the easy way out. What does that achieve though to roll over? It means your dependent upon your own kids of meaning? Then what after? You have only one life, why settle for so little. Obviously, your pretty successful, I've yet to even date any girl. So I'm not judging. The point being,is why quit? Your basically opting out, which I've contemplated but it doesn't really do anything and it doesn't push the needle forward. As much as I hate neurotypicals, I wish I could be one so badly. That's what we all want to be, is normal. That's why we spend money on stacks, work so hard, and push ourselves because we are tired of feeling like losers. I still feel like a loser. I reflect back upon all my disappoint and grief and all the what if's I'll never know because I simply couldn't stick to it, or I messed up. All the girls I could have had but I'll never know it. At my lowest I would waste 18 hours a day on video games and master bate for another 7 hours and look up the most repulsive filth possible to escape the world. I would charm my way, bruteforce my way and lie and use people because of my own weaknesses? I regret what I've done everyday. Is that really a way to live? Obviously, your much older, but I've reflected alot and I'm a high functioning person I say this sarcastically. I myself, wonder the same question? Why am I here? I go to the gym, and I never have enough of what those normies have to finish. Everyday I'm reminded of my own defect, every other day I get subpar scores, I forget something all because of a chemical? Isn't that bull? Doesn't that anger you? The course of MY ONLY life was determined because of some loser parents, who had bad genes. While everyone else gets to hold down a job, enjoy life and not take a stupid pill that makes you feel like dirt, and suicidal. I remember, all the times that I lost so much. I remember the humiliation. I remember alot and it's stuck with me just because of a little bad genetic lottery? Like how lame is that? A person who gets the wrong gene could get huntingtons and be sentenced to death, because two degenerates were irresponsible. I don't know I would want kids, with what I've had to go through. Above all, I remember my own excuses, I remember loosing my loved ones, I remember the dissappointment in my teachers, when I couldn't meet there expectations, So I lied and cheated. That's what we are seeking, is to finally be denied what was robbed from us. Are real lives, not the lives where you forgot something and you don't know why. Not the life, where you get fired because you said the wrong thing. Not the life where I was social outcast and spent everyday alone because I "couldn't get it". Not the life where I wasted 2500 hours on a videogame only to be medicore.Do you know what that does to the ego? Ofcourse you do. I say your purpose is to help develop a cure, so that the next person, born with this doesn't have to live what you and I have to live with. That is your purpose and every ADHD person, that wants there life to be full of meaning. You want meaning? Help design a cure. I'm currently developing one but it will take everyone. Should you fail to act, your kids may infact be put through the same trials you were put through. It won't be fun for them. Ofcourse, I'm projecting my own bias. I don't know. Accepting and rolling over is the easy way out. It's easy to be average and to go in silence. It's hard to go crazy and be in denial and to keep fighting when everything is hopeless. I don't know, but I will find a cure one way or another.
LongeCity
