Here we go again, and I'm about to give myself a mainly self-imposed torturous withdrawal from Dexedrine. Been here before, this is my 3rd or 4th round of stopping in the last decade, each case where I've stopped for roughly a year at a time. It's been dawning on me that it just doesn't work in my life anymore and I need to stop. However, each time I do, I turn into a useless sack of shit, unable to function and exist in any normal capacity. Lately, it's been effective for maybe an hour or two at best which quickly turns into anxiety, mood swings, or irritability and then later, exhaustion. Currently just on 15mg ER once per day, weaned down from 30/40.
Every single time I've gone off, it's been horrible and I swore in those states, that I wouldn't ever go there again. But I have and I am again. Will run out tomorrow. My NP appointment isn't till the 27th. If I can survive, I'll cancel it. Things I have in my arsenal are Racetams, Deprenyl, Uridine. Considering Stablon. I cannot take Modafinil products long term because of the aggravation of histamine response it produces and the anxiety, as well. Other than the Dexedrine, I currently supplement with Ashwagandha, Iodine, Matcha Green Tea, Magnesium, D3, Omegas, and some B's.
Starting this post because in a few days, I probably won't have the energy to do so and I think it might help to have an outlet to record experiences. Insight or suggestions are always appreciated.