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[YoungSchizo]

18 years ago I got my first psychosis due to female abuse by my childhood girlfriend. My psychosis got triggered by a conspiracy that involved arson, gangstalking and my girlfriend letting her abuse herself by criminals (my enemies) while I was under her influence that later on triggered a psychosis. Back in the day the psychiatry treated me as a potential pedophile, rapist and a danger to myself or others without even asking me or my family what happened in my life. They just labeled me as a crazy person with a wild imagination and labeled me schizophrenic and imprisoned me in the psychiatric system as a danger to myself or others even that was never the case. After 17 years of suffering I finally met the right psychiatrist and due to his therapy and finally letting me telling my story how I ended up in the psychiatry I got the acknowledge that I'm a victim of female abuse. Even though this had to be done 18 years ago I finally got contact with the police and the detectives that were involved in what happened 18 years ago to the victims of arson and me. They reopened the case and within a few months I will clarify everything that happened back then (I'm the golden tip, litteraly and figuratively) and my childhood girlfriend together with the criminals that were involved in this arson/abuse case will face trial.

 

Due to the psychiatric system and dumb fucking nitwits of psychiatrists I had before I got victimized by female abuse 2 other times. In one case I had a psychosis but had no lasting mental health problems and in another case a female psychologist abused me while I was in a scientific trial causing a psychotic trauma of years long sleep disorder that let to gambling addiction, alcoholism, depression and a delusion. Due to the different kind of (sexual) acts of my childhood girlfriend and the psychologist and the difference in psychosis I let myself think that it was all because of me that I saved the devil (my childhood girlfriend) and let one (the angel, the psychologist) go. While I was sleep deprived and alcoholic blaming myself due to this delusion I almost permanently ended up in a psychiatric care housing for the rest of my life. While in therapy with my current psychiatrist we by a miracle found out that the psychologist also abused me and my symptoms were caused by her deliberately making me a victim of her and her (sexual) act. With the support of psychiatrist I filed a complaint and the complaint purposely got denied by the hospital as there is no law where you can take a female abuser to court. Even though I'm right they will not compensate for my damages. Since there is no law that females can abuse a male I could not find a lawyer and for now I left this case to rest.

 

But here comes the good part, since my old psychiatrist that treated me as a menace and the psychologist working for the same hospital I can file a lifelong lawsuit against them after my childhood girlfriend and the gangstalking arsonists will face trial and thrown in jail. When that happens they have to acknowledge that female abuse is a real thing and also have to acknowledge that I'm a victim of my psychologist who run the study.

 

The reason I'm writing this is on how you guys think about female abuse, we live in a time where man and female are equal which I totally support but should female abuse not be recognized. I don't know the statistics and I don't know about stories here in the Netherlands but I do many homeless man in the USA are also victim of female abuse.

 

What are you guys stance on it? If you can prove you're a victim of female abuse shouldn't there be a law that should recognized such abuse?

 

 

[Galaxyshock]

Damn I'm sorry you have had to go through that. You seem like a friendly and smart fella. I guess female abuse is poorly recognized, more of a taboo topic?

[YoungSchizo]

I guess there's a taboo on it even though everyone knows stories where it happens (with or without a psychosis). Society and even psychiatry just looks another way when it happens. If you're a victim of female abuse you probably just have to become homeless or a junkie. My childhood girlfriend will be convicted of arson, the female psychologist will follow, dumb bitch used my medical records as a dating profile.

[gamesguru]

I think it's important, from every situation in life, not to become too bitter and always to take something away and learn from it.

 

Things need to be handled to an extent, and not just automatically swept under the rug. But when we dwell excessively on them, when we deeply identify with and entwine ourselves in trauma, we make it harder to experience the good this world has to offer.

 

I would detach myself from any negative narrative or prejudice. This was not female abuse, but rather an unfortunate situation. You are not a victim, but a protagonist on a constant path of growth.

 

Of course there are individuals who act out with deliberate malice and lack of regard for apparent ethics, there are even large systems and institutions whose entire purpose and integrity can be called into question. Entire movements may be absurd. I do not know what your history or current situation exactly is. But when we absorb ourselves completely in self-pity, when we get stuck in the past, we lose sight of the splendor and opportunity within our reach and we resign ourselves to a meaningless existence. When we find ourselves in these situations we must, however hard, take steps to adjust our thinking and hope for the best.

[YoungSchizo]

I think it's important, from every situation in life, not to become too bitter and always to take something away and learn from it.

 

Things need to be handled to an extent, and not just automatically swept under the rug. But when we dwell excessively on them, when we deeply identify with and entwine ourselves in trauma, we make it harder to experience the good this world has to offer.

 

I would detach myself from any negative narrative or prejudice. This was not female abuse, but rather an unfortunate situation. You are not a victim, but a protagonist on a constant path of growth.

 

Of course there are individuals who act out with deliberate malice and lack of regard for apparent ethics, there are even large systems and institutions whose entire purpose and integrity can be called into question. Entire movements may be absurd. I do not know what your history or current situation exactly is. But when we absorb ourselves completely in self-pity, when we get stuck in the past, we lose sight of the splendor and opportunity within our reach and we resign ourselves to a meaningless existence. When we find ourselves in these situations we must, however hard, take steps to adjust our thinking and hope for the best.

 

Even though I've been a victim three times I never became bitter against women, I love them, wouldn't know what to do without a world without women.

 

I don't go into detail but what the female psychologist did to me could've made her famous and rich in the medical world, she used and dumped me instead, I didn't know what happened back then, I found out 5 years later. My childhood girlfriend got famous among criminals for causing arson but she let me pay for the crimes she and her criminal exes did. 

[gamesguru]

It doesn't have to be sexist to be prejudiced. You could feel that way about therapists, or about your friends.

 

It just seems like a lot of complaining. And at one point you say a break was precipitated by their treatment. I don't know about that, anymore than eczema is precipitated by washing the floor (when it was already prodromal).

[YoungSchizo]

It doesn't have to be sexist to be prejudiced. You could feel that way about therapists, or about your friends.

 

It just seems like a lot of complaining. And at one point you say a break was precipitated by their treatment. I don't know about that, anymore than eczema is precipitated by washing the floor (when it was already prodromal).

 

Don't know what you mean with this. She run the study, my psychotic break happened at the end of study. I reported this to both hospitals, the one where the study was at and the hospital where my regular treatment was at, instead of helping me they neglected me. She used my participation as a personal situation and used my medical records as a dating profile, she caused a conflict of interest, I didn't know she was obsessed with me and had a dark side where she eventually used me for personal gains in her personal love life.

 

Basically she committed a unethical felony and used me as a lab rat for personal gains.

 

I signed a human studies damage insurance agreement and followed everything they told me to do.

Edited by YoungSchizo, 10 June 2023 - 05:14 PM.

[gamesguru]

Does CBD help? Have you tried lion's mane or magnesium?

[YoungSchizo]

Does CBD help? Have you tried lion's mane or magnesium?

 

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[gamesguru]

They can all help with SZ. Do you remember Flex?

[YoungSchizo]

They can all help with SZ. Do you remember Flex?

 

I barely have symptoms, I probably won't see a psychiatrist either as of next month since I don't need one anymore and only get a prescriptions from a regular GP doctor. My symptoms and psychoses are due my susceptibility to the evil eye (look it up). When I get psychotic I basically got raped mentally again since you cannot rape a male physically. My symptoms are caused by jealousy, stalking and someone fantasizing sexually when I have contact with them personally that can lead to a psychosis.  Upcoming years I probably will be in and out of court waging war on the criminals from my past, sueing my first psychiatrist that treated me as a pedophile/rapist and that helped criminals and called me a criminal and told me to kill myself. Sueing the psychologist and another psychiatrist that damaged me and neglected me and tried to make me homeless. When I do my story to the police my first psychiatrist and the female psychologist have to be in court because they were my mental health supervisors and have to leave a statement why they punished and tortured a victim of a crime.

 

Yes, I remember Flex, why?

[gamesguru]

I too have been wrongly insulted and antagonized by psychologists. But I don't try to sue them or blame them for my resulting situation. I simply tell them their values are in disarray with mine, the sessions are not productive enough to justify the costs, they have been disrespectful of boundaries, and unless they feel contrary or strongly see a future in this relationship that this will be our last session. If they have been especially uncooperative or opinionated or hostile, I might leave a 2 or 3 star review online.

Do you know what Flex's diagnosis was? Do you know what mine tentatively is? Afaik we have an attenuated form of schizophrenia, StPD, where we don't have as consistently disorganized thinking and are able to recognize some of our ridiculous beliefs. If you fix some of the more major positive symptoms (e.g. psychosis), you could still be left with some residue symptoms (flat affect, disorganized thinking, paranoia, social withdrawal). And those can be pretty serious and to say they are "barely [any] symptoms" isn't terribly accurate.

[YoungSchizo]

I too have been wrongly insulted and antagonized by psychologists. But I don't try to sue them or blame them for my resulting situation. I simply tell them their values are in disarray with mine, the sessions are not productive enough to justify the costs, they have been disrespectful of boundaries, and unless they feel contrary or strongly see a future in this relationship that this will be our last session. If they have been especially uncooperative or opinionated or hostile, I might leave a 2 or 3 star review online.

Do you know what Flex's diagnosis was? Do you know what mine tentatively is? Afaik we have an attenuated form of schizophrenia, StPD, where we don't have as consistently disorganized thinking and are able to recognize some of our ridiculous beliefs. If you fix some of the more major positive symptoms (e.g. psychosis), you could still be left with some residue symptoms (flat affect, disorganized thinking, paranoia, social withdrawal). And those can be pretty serious and to say they are "barely [any] symptoms" isn't terribly accurate.

 

What my first psychiatrist did is a crime, he knew I was a victim of a crime yet he treated me as a rapist of my childhood girlfriend who's the cause of arson and my schizophrenia, yet he treated me as a prisoner while I was very vulnerable. My time in the psychiatry only had to be 5 years but due his crimes against me it's now been 18 years (in my crisis in 2010 I specifically asked for the police but he convicted me and saved the criminals which is a crime). I actually don't need to sue the female psychologist since I had a insurance for damages but since the hospital is not willing to compensate for my damages I might still have to sue her too. I would travel all over the world backpacking if she didn't damage me, all my travels were cancelled and she left me in a delusion which almost lead to suicide and/or being lifetime in a psychiatric care housing.

 

Of course my susceptibility will never go away and I will still be prone to psychosis but as horrifying and disabling as my first and third psychosis it will never be again. Since I have insight due to the help of my current psychiatrist I probably won't even engage into relationships. The most important thing for me when I finished my businesses is that I can keep away the depression.

Edited by YoungSchizo, 11 June 2023 - 02:34 AM.

[gamesguru]

I'm struggling to grasp exactly which laws were broken. Are you in Europe or the US? Afaik you can't sue a therapist for having a personality you don't like. Even if you could, you don't necessarily have to. Just because you can sue someone or physically beat them up, doesn't mean you have to.

 

How did he "convict" you, how were you treated as a "prisoner". If you felt the therapist was abusive, why did you not leave the situation? What did you request the police for?

 

And how did your girlfriend cause your schizophrenia? I thought we agreed it was due to genetics and environment.

[YoungSchizo]

I'm struggling to grasp exactly which laws were broken. Are you in Europe or the US? Afaik you can't sue a therapist for having a personality you don't like. Even if you could, you don't necessarily have to. Just because you can sue someone or physically beat them up, doesn't mean you have to.

 

How did he "convict" you, how were you treated as a "prisoner". If you felt the therapist was abusive, why did you not leave the situation? What did you request the police for?

 

And how did your girlfriend cause your schizophrenia? I thought we agreed it was due to genetics and environment.

 

Europe. I got the treatment of a pedophile/rapist even though I am a victim of a crime and the key figure to solve that crime. Every time I talked about the arson/abuse case they put it of as fantasy because they labeled me paranoid delusional. Due to my first psychiatrist they protected criminals to get away with life sentences and they treated me as the rapist of my childhood girlfriend that forcefully had to report himself as a prisoner of the psychiatry. I had to report myself 17 years long every 2 weeks due to the malpractice of my first psychiatrist. 

 

There was a organized conspiracy against me, I was under my childhood girlfriend influence, while I was under her influence she let her abuse herself by my enemies, when I went full blown psychotic I felt her and those sick fucks emotions, she abused me in the sake to save my enemies and the psychiatry did exactly what the criminals wanted, treat me as mentally insane and a danger to myself or others. The real mentally insane ones got away and I got treated as a prisoner. I got convicted by the psychiatry even though I was never delusional.

 

I got the treatment of a criminal instead of victim.

 

It might to complicated for you to understand but my psychiatrist knows and the specialists forensic psychiatrists of the police will understand everything I will tell them.

Edited by YoungSchizo, 11 June 2023 - 04:47 AM.

[gamesguru]

Who are the other criminals you keep speaking of, who allegedly got off, and you were caught as a scapegoat in their place? What was the crime they perpetrated against you in the first place?

Do you mean you became a convicted pedophile? Or just that your therapist offended you by labeling you as one? How old was your girlfriend?

I wouldn't label you as a danger to others, but mentally insane I'm starting to see a case for that. Strong thread of grandiose, persecutory delusions. Disorganized thinking. Possible depression.

What are you currently doing to manage your symptoms?

[YoungSchizo]

Who are the other criminals you keep speaking of, who allegedly got off, and you were caught as a scapegoat in their place? What was the crime they perpetrated against you in the first place?

Do you mean you became a convicted pedophile? Or just that your therapist offended you by labeling you as one? How old was your girlfriend?

I wouldn't label you as a danger to others, but mentally insane I'm starting to see a case for that. Strong thread of grandiose, persecutory delusions. Disorganized thinking. Possible depression.

What are you currently doing to manage your symptoms?

 

It's a very long story but I'm the keyfigure the police is looking for that case and for all the crimes the criminals committed that period.

 

No, they treated me as a mentally insane/retarded even though I was telling a true story. They only thing they saw was my symptoms not the story I was telling. I'm a victim of gangstalking and a abuse conspiracy that's why I developed schizophrenia. My girlfriend was only 1 year younger than me.

 

You're like the psychiatry that's why the psychiatry is nothing more than a prison, so if I was everything what you said would the police treat me as their crown witness? So my current psychiatrist, the victims of arson, the police and me must be retarded and mentally insane?

Edited by YoungSchizo, 11 June 2023 - 01:01 PM.

[gamesguru]

Still think you need to keep an open mind and find a better psychiatrist / psychologist.  That's a positive thing we have to focus on.  If we focus only on the negative of trying to sue them, that doesn't help us or do anything for us.

[YoungSchizo]

Still think you need to keep an open mind and find a better psychiatrist / psychologist.  That's a positive thing we have to focus on.  If we focus only on the negative of trying to sue them, that doesn't help us or do anything for us.

 

I have the greatest psychiatrist ever. It just took him 1.5 years treat me and now I can leave the psychiatry forever. He doesn't care about his co-workers either because of how they treated me, it's an honest man which has a warm heart and great insight in medicine and psychoses.

 

If serving justice and punishing people that break the law and committed a crime against you means nothing for you, be me guest and let them walk all over you. For me justice means everything. 

[gamesguru]

Are you done seeing him then? Did he prescribe anything?

[YoungSchizo]

Are you done seeing him then? Did he prescribe anything?

 

Yeah his job is done so he lets me go. I only need to get my prescriptions for antipsychotics and benzo's monthly from a GP doc.