Actually Synaesthetic posted
http://www.ergo-log....asomnifera.html which had me thinking that testosterone could be the problem, but what Niner said really match how I feel. I feel depressed but more unmotivated. I don't mind talking to people especially if I already know them, but I just have no motivation or care to do so. If someone offered me a job, then yeah I'd go work there, but to find the job myself is just not happening. Some days I'll stay in bed till like 3 or 4pm not wanting to do anything. Then I pop Ashwagandha and all that changes. Keep in mind that by the time I wake up in the morning, the Ashwagandha has worn off, and I'm back to my old self again. Not sure if milk has much to do with it, as I get the same results when I take it in capsule form with water. By the way I did not know Ashwagandha was studied on rats for depression this is very interesting as I read somewhere once (cannot remember the source) that Ashwagandha helps to regulate nor-epinephrine levels. I took Lexapro for a while, and while it completely took away my depression, I was still unmotivated to do anything. Stimulant (an other) medications affect my motivation a great deal. Here's the breakdown:
~ Lexapro ~
Upside: Made me very social. Completely took away any anxiety/social-anxiety I had. Great drug (for an RX anyway).
Downside: RLS. Wore off if I took it consecutively. Did nothing for my motivation.
~ Adderall ~
Upside: Made me ridiculously motivated. Almost too motivated. Felt like I could take on Donald Trump in the financial game, just give me one week.
Downside: It wore off after a few days and I had to keep upping the dosage which started to make me extremely irritable. The tension headaches were really bad as well. Also would sleep for a long time when this wore off due to the high stimulation my brain received from it.
~ L-Theanine ~
Upside: Could concentrate well and had a relaxed feeling with it.
Downside: I became more anti-social. Less quick with words. This could be the dopamine acting as an antagonist to serotonin. Wouldn't say this motivated me at all though.
~ Strattera ~
Upside: Loved this stuff. Took away any depression and made me more motivated and could concentrate well while still remaining social. It was like a watered down version of adderall, but very very smooth.
Downside: It wore off after a month taking it, and although I could have gone up in dosage, the side effects were just too much to contend with.
~ DLPA ~
Upside: In an attempt to mimic Strattera, it wasn't all that bad.
Downside: It gave me a big headache and made me irritable possibly due to the high dosage of 500mg. Maybe less would have done the trick, not sure.
~ L-Tyrosine ~
Upside: Could concentrate better, thats about it.
Downside: Made me irritable, a little bit of a headache, and still depressed/unmotivated.
~ Inositol ~
Upside: Very motivated. Lifted depression.
Downside: Raised body temperature drastically using 6g 2x/day. Felt a like it was frying my brain, just too overstimulated.
~ Caffeine ~
Upside: Feel important and a bit motivated.
Downside: I pee a lot, get the chills, and get the shakes a little bit. Also, my stomach doesn't like it so much either.
~ GABA (in the form of picamilon) ~
Upside: Helps with any anxiety/social-anxiety I may have, but on a small level. Helps with focus and being able to remain calm.
Downside: Makes me tired. Doesn't really move me to want to do anything.
~ Huperzine-a ~
Upside: Works great for my concentration and focus, and a little bit for my anxiety as well.
Downside: Doesn't really motivate. Great supplement otherwise.
What's crazy is that the Braverman test I took said I was deficient in all the neurotransmitters (shouldn't this be a Guinness record or something). Maybe the Ashwagandha is working on all of them except the serotonin of course. I could even try taking this with the Lexapro or some 5-HTP because now that I recall when I've taken it with Lexapro is when I have felt my best ever. I may try the 5-HTP with it. Crap, maybe this is what I need to do. Not sure.
Edited by navyblue, 15 September 2009 - 06:14 AM.