Hello there,
First, I must apologize for this extremely long post. I came to this forum seeking advice on potential therapies for a drug-induced psychosis that I've been battling over the past 2 years. I believe the culprit is dextromethorphan, which I haven't done since August 2008, but I still notice a permanent change in my memory formation ever since doing that specific drug. It triggered an intense schizophrenia-like psychosis in me, which has caused absolutely insane, almost uncontrollable delusions and memory problems. I've only done it 4 times in my entire life, starting from March 2008 and ending in August that year..and it was easily the most damaging drug I've ever done before. I have a brief history with other substance abuse (tons of pot smoking, some opiates, adderall, coke, muscle relaxers, diphenhydramine, xanax, shrooms, salvia, MDMA, etc.) but have completely abstained from using anything for just under a year now..and I've stayed away from most of the drugs in that list for at 2 years or more.
Anyway, I was ignorant to the effects of DXM on the brain during the times that I took it, and have researched it quite thoroughly since I quit doing drugs. But what I basically know about DXM is that it's an NMDA receptor antagonist, which like other dissociative drugs, can disrupt and modify the frequency of cortical oscillations in the brain..which is used by the NMDA system for memory formation and other uses. My goal right now, and for now on, is to have a clean mind, and heal it of the damage brought on by dextromethorphan. Most of the noticeable effects have gone away since it's been almost 2 years since I've done it, but the memory problems still pop up quite frequently. (Getting deja vu occasionally still, but which was very frequent right after my DXM trips years ago).
I just want to fix the cortical oscillations in my brain and heal my NMDA receptor system. I would kill just to have a normal memory again, and it was an incredibly hard lesson to learn. I can't seem to find enough information on alternative therapies to heal my brain, and I've found nothing to make me feel normal again. I'm tired of feeling like a nutjob and just want to be normal again. I exercise frequently, and keep my body in shape (I love bodybuilding), I meditate (granted, not nearly as much as I used to), and I follow a pretty good diet. I take multivitamins everyday and have recently started to supplement with 500mg Niacin (nicotinic acid, the form that makes your skin flush), and 400mg SAMe daily. (I started taking SAMe for my recent depression, which it's been very effective at relieving). I've taken fish oil before but didn't really notice any effects from that alone.
I feel more focused and somewhat normalized since I've been taking SAMe (it's been about 10 days since I've been on it), but I don't know if that's contributed to actual brain healing/cell methylation, or it's mild stimulating effect. I talked with a guy that owns an alternative health shop in my town and he was recommending me DMG (dimethylglycine), since it's cheaper than SAMe and proven to be an apparently effective product. He told me that it would help fix the wiring in my brain and normalize my brain function. I've never taken it personally though and I wouldn't see a point to take both DMG & SAMe together (but let me know if I should anyway). He also recommended that I take Source Naturals "St. John's Positive Thoughts." He gave me a sample of it but I didn't really notice anything aside from mild calming and anxiolytic effects.
Anyway, what would you recommend I start taking or doing to normalize my mind? I've been extremely drawn towards nootropics ever since I heard about them, and I am very interested in optimizing, and maximizing my brain function (at least after my brain is normal again). Are there any supplements or nootropic agents that would help my NMDA receptor system recover? Again, sorry for the long, and probably obnoxious post..I used the search function but couldn't find anything closely-related enough to my own issue to find a solution. Thank you.