Hey guys... I will cut right to the chase... this is really depressing and I would definitely appreciate some help.... Right now I am about 9 months post.
Incidents
1. Vyvanse + Piracetam + low dose dep+ Nicotine ... multiple times. The Piracetam was 3 to 4 g, vyvanse was a borderline euphoric dose. This resulted in possibly week long periods of 180 systolic plus blood pressures, rebound depression from the vyvanse and subsequently multiple dosings in one day.... but i did get increased productivity!... also the piracetam was only run for a couple of days. This was before obviously I had understood the nmda issue with piracetam and vyvanse
2. DXM 60 mg + vyvanse + low dose dep + Nicotine I had borderline serotonin syndrome and a adrenergic storm incidient once or twice... complete with the slight muscle twiching and high bps. ... I tried to use DXM as nmda antagonist before I got mematine. I did corroted sinus massage and valvasla maneuver to bring my BP down. It eventually got to the point where I could not feel the vyvanse working at all If I did not take the nicotine gum..(1-4 mg)... It felt like my dopamine was "locked up" and nicotine had the key.
3.Nicotine + Vyvanse + L-tyrosine.
4. Dep+ L-Tyrosine.
Probably combinations of all of the above too.. I can't really remember.
Symptoms
1. Obviously depression... but this has subsided.
2. Very Impared verbal recall. (For Sure)
3. Sluggish cognitive tempo (although I have always had this... but I think it got worse).
4. Anhedonia? ( again not sure if it has been this bad)
5. I can intuit a concept in my right brain but my left brain has a hard time describing and explaining it.
6. Impaired overall memory.
7. Poor spelling/writing.
What I am doing so far
1. Exercise
2. Cod Liver Oil
3. Ashwaganda
4. General thyroid support, adaptogens and 67 mcg bid of sustained release T3.
5. Lions mane bid.
6. Curcumin in the morning with a meal.
7. Was taking vinopectine... but stopped upon reading it's adverse effects in a recent thread.
8. Dual-n-Back (stopped for a month due to travel.
All for only about a month or two.... I cannot tell and major difference so far but I am keeping optimistic (sometimes)... I honestly Just feel stupid right now.... and like my brain is locked in a bubble and can't communicate.
Types of damage I suspect
1. Well the piracetam and dopaminergic stimulation probably sent my nmda receptors insane and killed off half of them.
2. Bye bye serotonin system.
3. oxidative stress
4. reduced dopamine??
I realize there have been other similar threads but I feel that this is enough of a departure from the usual MDMA issues.
The possible solutions I can think of include just generally taking NGF and growth stimulating nootropics along with exercise and trying to funnel that into some good remodeling with brain workouts. Anything else I am missing? Anything specific the the nmda damage? What about taking mematine to hopefully up regulate the receptors ones I have left or piracetam to do the same... or should I not mess with them and leave them be. Maybe see a neurologist and get scanned for excitoxic lesions?
Thanks!