I'm thinking that amphetamine may just not be for me, it induces way too much euphoria next to its therapeutic effects and actually keeps me inside because i prefer just listening music here, AMT on its own is far more therapeutic for me, so gonna stop a while with amp, and try other strategy's with AMT.
I think that is a wise decision, ultimately you'll only be able to move forward in life if you abandon the transitory and unsustainable euphoric state. Stability and consistency of mood in a euthymic state is far more productive and ultimately fulfilling and contenting. This is something I learned over a year ago, and my life has massively improved since I stopped abusing drugs in a recreational capacity. If you've previously abused drugs it takes a while to be satisfied without regular euphoric experiences, and like you've mentioned before you have an addictive personality. So maybe you won't be able to abandon euphoria entirely, but reducing it's regularity is the first step. I find it ironic that you complain about anhedonia actually, when it is one of the classic side-effects of induced euphoria.
I have experimented somewhat with AMT and have decided that it isn't really for me, if anything it lowers my productivity and pragmatism, although it does have some minor-moderate pro-social and mood enhancing effects. I also find that after using I have some negative after effects 2 days later, which includes flat mood/affect and reduced sociability; nothing too unpleasant, but I'm extremely sensitive to changes in my psyche now. How strong is the mood enhancement for you Medieval? Because it was weak to almost unnoticeable for me depending on dose, and I tried up to 15mg (which made me way to spaced out). I believe other pharmaceuticals in my regime are attenuating this effect as well as any energising aspects. It does give me energy, but nowhere near counters my chronic fatigue alone, and is far from as effective at this as Modafinil. At 7.5mgs I found it synergised well with alcohol, but in this circumstance it also dilated my pupils, but this was not noticeable unless you were looking for it. I still intend to experiment with the dose a bit for the weekend usage I previously detailed, but I'm in no rush to do this. I relish the positive mood stability I have on my current regime, and am loathe to disrupt it so if I choose to use it in this capacity it will be a rare occurrence.
As an aside, it also has a horrid odour, and while this is typical of research chemicals; in AMT's case it is particularly unpleasant. I am also fairly certain it has a neurotoxic effect, I am very experienced with recreational drugs of both the legal and illegal kind, including the more esoteric research chemicals and I've found it is fairly easy to tell the difference between a benign and more malignant agent. If anything though I would say it is one of the less damaging of the primarily recreational research chemicals, but I can see long term (1 year+) use causing definite issues.