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[James Light]

Hello. How are you, Longecity.

My name is James. At age 19 I discovered literature that narrated the saga of psychedelics during the 60s. All its colour, all its dyonisiac weirdness, and its splendor and its final crash and burn. I read about LSD comedic abuse and how it also was, without a doubt, a tool for personal discovery, healing and learning. So about this time I smoked pot for the first time, and then tried LSD --with amazing discoveries, both recreational and spiritual and physical. I found a definitve sense to oriental philosophy and practices. Shamanism and ancient superstitions now were far from being opinion of men who were ignorant. On the contrary they are filled with Jungian ideas of the psyche before Jung, existentialism before Sartre, sociology before sociology. I Began practicing martial arts. I still practice meditation from time to time. My intelligence was without a doubt (though I never took a test) enhanced. Here is a discovery I haven't heard about anywhere: MDMA (at least for me) in its almost pure form is a great nootropic, with positive effects that last for _months_ with one single dose or trip.

Everything was great. Then I decided that I wanted to see what was the greatest revelation I could have trhough the use of LSD. Certainly after it, postmodern philosophy and the Frankfurt school made sense (lots of sense. Society is very basically, the Matrix, people; and its very cruel.), I was better at math, and at social relationships. But as I said, I wanted to see what was the greatest revelation I could have through the substance LSD.

So, I'll skip the trip report. I took three blotters of very good acid. I had a trip that lasted 24 hours and was devastating.

Sin ce then the effects I have experienced:

- Some sort of 'brain slowing'. Doing things takes me more time, answering a question takes me more time.
- Tracers, halos around objects. Visual noise.
- Constant anxiety.
- Severe depression.
-Brain fog.

(The HPPD frame)

and:

- Very diminished skill and coordination.

It was crap and I had changed a lot so my girlfriend dumped me and began usig street amphetamines. Sometimes they were good. Sometimes the were complete crap. After being on a four day meth binge I began experiencing:

- a great difficulty ordering complex ideas in my brain.
- And a constant nervousness which translated in anxiety.

Then I wanted to try one good MDMA trip. I felt in need for the complete relaxation of MDMA but pills around here were terrible (more cheap amphetamines or similar instead of pure MDMA).

After a few accidents I had more symptoms:

- Increased axiety.
- Increased depression.
- Yet a slower trhought process.
- Severe memory problems.
- Weird brain fog.

I've been clean for 8 months now. That LSD trip I'm talking about happened 4 years ago. I can't remember where I heard about nootropics, but 5 months ago I bought some Piracetam took 800 or 1200mg daily for 2 months. It helped. A lot. Seems I have actually recovered a little. I got my hands on some fish oil and it's been working too. It really has helped me ith the anxiety and the visual noise.


That is the story. Here are a few more specyfic questions:

- I think drugs that help heal the brain of Alzheimer or Parkinson might help me a little more. What do you think? What should I take?
I have heard Piracetam is also used in people with Parkinson or Alzeheimer. I suspect my brain is filled with tiny mouseholes all over.

- Any of you has had similar experiences with illegal substances?


Also here is a list of things I've tried and that don't seem to have helped me: Pyritinol (this doesn't seem to do anything to me), B complex, 5-HTP, E Vitamin, Creatine, Green tea (helps a littel it seems), Magnesium (sometimes seem to help very little), Inositol, Choline, Alcohol (moderate doses), Gingseng... And I think that's it.

- Nootropics that might help recover from brain damage? to recover from severe brain fog?

Thanks. Any help and comment is greatly appreciated. Thank you.,

[James Light]

Oh, I began using ALCAR three days ago, and it seems to be working greatly. I've heard it increases NGF, so I'm hoping some of the benefits stay even after I stop using it. Also I just began taking Lion's mane, and I'm waiting to see the results.

[The Immortalist]

and that is why you shouldn't do drugs :3

Edited by The Immortalist, 26 January 2011 - 05:30 AM.

[niner]

and that is why you shouldn't do drugs :3

I think he's already got that part figured out.

James, the damage probably isn't as bad as you think. I think you're already on the right track with fish oil, magnesium, and ALCAR. I would add 2-3000 IU/day of vitamin D3 in an oil-based (softgel) formulation, a good diet, and an exercise program. Exercise can do a hell of a lot for your brain. Other things to consider: 0.5 mg Melatonin a half hour before bed. It's hard to find a dose this small; I use the more typical 3mg tablets that I cut into quarters with a pill splitter. That's close enough. 5mg lithium orotate is worth a try. It makes a big difference for a lot of people.

[Spectre]

and that is why you shouldn't do drugs :3

I think he's already got that part figured out.

James, the damage probably isn't as bad as you think. I think you're already on the right track with fish oil, magnesium, and ALCAR. I would add 2-3000 IU/day of vitamin D3 in an oil-based (softgel) formulation, a good diet, and an exercise program. Exercise can do a hell of a lot for your brain. Other things to consider: 0.5 mg Melatonin a half hour before bed. It's hard to find a dose this small; I use the more typical 3mg tablets that I cut into quarters with a pill splitter. That's close enough. 5mg lithium orotate is worth a try. It makes a big difference for a lot of people.

^^^ This.

+ the following (in my opinion):

- Deprenyl/Selegiline (5mg/daily)
- Ginkgo Biloba

Deprenyl has seemingly helped a lot with the cognitive impairment I experienced from using mind altering psychoactives. I've only been on it for about 8 days but the effects have been instantaneous and really worked wonders for me thus far, it's the only pharmaceutical drug that I have a positive feeling about through and through. Ginkgo will gradually increase blood flow to the brain and should enhance its function. I have always seen great results with this herb and it will help with any memory issues you may be experiencing. I started taking it again and it's showing positive results as well. Good luck and if you need any more advice just let me know.

[Saha]

Believe me, you'll be alright. There are so many possible reasons why you have this condition.
So my best advice: visit a doctor. Don't tell him about your drug use, if you don't want to.
Nootropics are amazing thing and they may work for you, but they also MAY NOT work for you. And it is very likely that nootropics isn't the best way to solve your problems.

You told that you suffer(or suffered) from depression. Depression is a serious thing, it is more than just bad mood, and they can cause brainfog, trouble-thinking. You also may feel like your memory is broken, your mind is slower and not as sharp as it was, you can feel tired, especially when you had some mental activity.

A lot of people do drugs, some of them get mental problems, and very, very few got real brain damage, which is irreversible.

In short, what I am trying to tell you. You DID NOT damage your brain, but it is obvious that you have problems, so go visit a doctor.

EDIT: BTW, how long and how much did you take stimulants?

Edited by Saha, 26 January 2011 - 08:30 AM.

[maxwatt]

Physical exercise. It's been shown to stimulate stem cells in the brain, actually inducing the growth of more neurons. Both extended aerobic (running or bicycling briskly, even walking briskly for half an hour) and weight lifting should be helpful.

Learning. Study something. Forming new neural pathways stimulates other parts of the brain as well.

That will give the fish oil et al. something to work on.

[James Light]

Thank you. Thank you very much for your answers, Saha, Maxwatt, Spectre and niner and immortalist.

I've done exercise more or less regularly since I was 17. I'm 27 now, by the way. I don't know if it helps that much, but I won't stop. Also I think I'll begin exercising with more regularity and discipline. You are right, this and a good diet are probably the most essential things.

As for depression, I have to say that while I'm not the most optimistic person, I've gotten better since I began taking the Piracetam (I stopped a few months ago but I still feel better), and since I got in another healthy relationship. There is still a chronic thing going on, but it's getting better, it seems to me. I'll try to visit a doctor, though I would like to be sure that he is a man without taboos on drug use, since eventually it would be for the best to tell him about the origin of my ailments.

Right now I'm studying again. I quit my job a month ago, and I'm independently studying art, and I'm attempting to enroll for a philosophy major in an open course at the university (Though I feel to be honest-.. impaired: I read consirably slower than I used to, to say the least.

My biggest problesm now are the weird brain fog, my unusually slow brain, and the HPPD visual symptoms.

Saha, as for how long and how much did I take stimulants, well, for LSD: on average once a month for 2 and half years. After the incident with LSD that I describe above I began having bad trips only so I mostly stopped.

For miscellaneous amphetamines and MDMA, there were two periods which lasted about four months during which I took mostly two pills a month. Though for a couple of weeks I found myself taking four or three during the week. I've popped around thirty pills I think, of diverse amphetamine related contents. One night I took four (maybe five?) good quality pills.

I've also used, for the sake of experimentation, only a couple of times, psychedelic mushrooms, DXM, and some other stuff. This doesn't seem to have affected me negatively at all, though.

[Delta Gamma]

Well the "4 day meth binge" could have resulted in long term DA depletion, so perhaps L-phenylalanine and/or L-tyrosine could be of some help. Also, assuming the cause is long term DA depletion, heavy doses of magnesium or lighter doses of a selective NMDA receptor antagonist could help you out by, among other things, helping upregulate your D2 receptors.

As for HPPD, I have a friend who's sister fell into the rave scene and ended up doing large amounts of "MDMA" and various psychedelics. She says she got friend, but L-theanine helps her out quite a bit.

But, see a doctor and good luck man.

[maxwatt]

Do tell your doctor from the first about your drug use. It will help him help you, and he may be able to refer you to a specialist with the knowledge to help you.

If the doctor is a younger man, he is likely to have experimented with drugs at some time, and no doubt had friends in school who did drugs to some degree. If you feel comfortable with him at your initial impression, don't hold back. Most will be non-judgmental, and try to help you.

[Mindweaver]

I suffered severe cognitive impairment from DXM and other mind altering substances. I will guarantee you will see improvement if you do what I did:

Fish Oil - 1,200mg (1x a day)
ALCAR - 500mg (1x a day)
Piracetam - 800mg (1x a day)
Alpha GPC - 300mg (1x a day)

Take it all with breakfast (right before eating). I will guarantee this will make your life better. At the beginning your body/brain will be adjusting to the nootropics, so if you experience anxiety, headaches, or whatever, all that should mean to you is that it's working. It will definitely improve your quality of living, brain function, mental imagery, memory (short term, long term, recall), speech articulation. I can promise you I have noticed improvement that actually lasted after discontinuing these products. A lasting change has been made, for the better, and I definitely thank this regime. Don't go crazy with substances, I say do this for 1 month straight, and take a 2 day break. 30 days on, 2 days off, maybe even 4-6 days off, but definitely cycle it. Your dreams should get pretty crazy too.

If you have any more questions, just ask.

[onetimevisit]

Maybe you got your anwser, but your "ego"(dopamine structures) were insufficient to comphrehend the
network outputs. Meth would have compounded the problem, through oxidising those neurons.
There are definitly ways to stimulate Stem cells, which can express tyrosine hydroxylase etc.
Chinese herbalist might be good, eg Royal jelly

[Delta Gamma]

Maybe you got your anwser, but your "ego"(dopamine structures) were insufficient to comphrehend the
network outputs. Meth would have compounded the problem, through oxidising those neurons.
There are definitly ways to stimulate Stem cells, which can express tyrosine hydroxylase etc.
Chinese herbalist might be good, eg Royal jelly

I'll second Chinese herbs such as ginseng and ginkgo, as they have proven in vivo performance, but royal jelly is broken down fairly easily in the human G.I. tract.

[longevitynow]

I wouldn't discount low-grade depression as a possible factor. Including neurotransmitter depletion. But depression isn't just neurotransmitters. It can be related to situations, bipolar tendencies/rhythms, boredom/lack of excitement. I've seen people pop out of low grade depressions that they may not have even known even existed after one or a few doses of deprenyl/piracetam/wellbutrin. My hypothesis is that they have a mild lethargic depression, probably related to low levels of stimulating neurotransmitters, and the above agents provide a quick boost that they really notice. Deprenyl plus DL-Phenylalanine is a good combination for waking up the mind. Deprenyl is more stimulating while DL-Phenylalanine and/or Tyrosine/NALT can provide precursors to endogenous dopamine. Consider using a slant board or inversion table, about 30 degree incline for 15-20 minutes. Very relaxing and rejuvenating. I imagine it is very good for the brain.

[Saha]

Thank you. Thank you very much for your answers, Saha, Maxwatt, Spectre and niner and immortalist.

I've done exercise more or less regularly since I was 17. I'm 27 now, by the way. I don't know if it helps that much, but I won't stop. Also I think I'll begin exercising with more regularity and discipline. You are right, this and a good diet are probably the most essential things.

As for depression, I have to say that while I'm not the most optimistic person, I've gotten better since I began taking the Piracetam (I stopped a few months ago but I still feel better), and since I got in another healthy relationship. There is still a chronic thing going on, but it's getting better, it seems to me. I'll try to visit a doctor, though I would like to be sure that he is a man without taboos on drug use, since eventually it would be for the best to tell him about the origin of my ailments.

Right now I'm studying again. I quit my job a month ago, and I'm independently studying art, and I'm attempting to enroll for a philosophy major in an open course at the university (Though I feel to be honest-.. impaired: I read consirably slower than I used to, to say the least.

My biggest problesm now are the weird brain fog, my unusually slow brain, and the HPPD visual symptoms.

Saha, as for how long and how much did I take stimulants, well, for LSD: on average once a month for 2 and half years. After the incident with LSD that I describe above I began having bad trips only so I mostly stopped.

For miscellaneous amphetamines and MDMA, there were two periods which lasted about four months during which I took mostly two pills a month. Though for a couple of weeks I found myself taking four or three during the week. I've popped around thirty pills I think, of diverse amphetamine related contents. One night I took four (maybe five?) good quality pills.

I've also used, for the sake of experimentation, only a couple of times, psychedelic mushrooms, DXM, and some other stuff. This doesn't seem to have affected me negatively at all, though.

Well, your stimulant/empathogen abuse wasn't so great as it seemed from your post. Actually, your usage of this substances was quite moderate. I am sure, you haven't damage your brain. Don't worry about it. I am sure, when you receive medical help, you will be alright.

This is great, that nootropics work for you. However, I strongly advise you to go to a doctor. It should(and it will) help you much. It may be a good idea to take nootropics in addition to the prescribed medication, but not all drugs are safe to combine - so be careful with it.

In short, I want to tell you, that although nootropics works, you probably will achieve greater results with proper medication.

And please report back!

[Ark]

Your problems are from screwing your 5-HT recpetores not from real LSD, now if you were say taking research chemicals then we might see some frontal cortex damage if I remember correctly. I suggest no more X at any cost, not even molly, and I'd check into Fish Oil, Stablon, Ashwangda, Bacopa, Coconut Oil, Ixel, Paxil, Bacopa & lions mane.


Hope you wise up....

[Ark]

Your problems are from screwing your 5-HT recpetores not from real LSD, now if you were say taking research chemicals then we might see some frontal cortex damage if I remember correctly. I suggest no more X at any cost, not even molly, and I'd check into Fish Oil, Stablon, Ashwangda, Bacopa, Coconut Oil, Ixel, Paxil, Bacopa & lions mane.


Hope you wise up....

make sure to stay far away from DXM as well & meth forsure.

[chrono]

Hi James! It sounds like you're thinking along some good lines. I'd suggest reading this thread for a great discussion on MDMA damage and treatment, with links to older discussions here. For the sake of diagnosis, you may want to consider the possibility that what gave you your 'bad trip' wasn't LSD, but some kind of research chem sold on a blotter. Especially if it lasted a full 24 hours...

It's great that piracetam and ALCAR have helped you; if ALCAR helped after only 3 days, it points to something other than 'brain damage,' I think. NGF takes several days longer than that to start having any impact; probably much longer for actual structural repair. If your troubles are neurotransmitter-related, that's probably much easier to address.

So in addition to trying to heal putative damage in ways that make sense, you may want to start looking at your problems of anxiety, attention and cognition in more generals terms, rather than only from the perspective of repairing damage, and include more generally applicable solutions.

I'd also like to emphatically echo the recommendation to just use your brain. Study recreationally, figure things out just for the sake of it, and try to improve your thinking and perspective in as many ways possible. I feel that this is the best thing you can do, whatever the cause of the problem (or if there aren't any to begin with!). Also think about getting back into meditation? It's extremely difficult when your brain is scattered, but I think it can still improve anxiety and attention.

Do tell your doctor from the first about your drug use. It will help him help you, and he may be able to refer you to a specialist with the knowledge to help you.

If the doctor is a younger man, he is likely to have experimented with drugs at some time, and no doubt had friends in school who did drugs to some degree. If you feel comfortable with him at your initial impression, don't hold back. Most will be non-judgmental, and try to help you.

Conversely, if you're a young man who admits to long-term multisubstance (ab)use, you'll definitely be attaching a stigma to your medical records, with possible implications for how doctors will look at you down the road, and even what treatment options may be available (the leap from 'drug user' to 'drug seeker' is a natural one for many doctors). It depends on the doctor you have now, but also those you'll have down the road. Also, my highly subjective opinion is that most doctors have a hard enough time treating common problems, and probably won't have any treatment ideas specifically for the kind of obscure damage that may or may not have occurred (unless we're talking about a neuropharmacologist). If anything, discussing it would probably be helpful in psychological treatment.

I'm certainly not suggesting you shouldn't talk to your doctor about it, only that you should consider the ramifications and outcomes carefully, since it can't be undone.

I will guarantee you will see improvement if you do what I did:

Please don't make statements like this. Given the huge spectrum of possible etiology and biochemical individuality, it's simply untrue, and could give people the wrong idea. Though it worked for you, the stack you mention would literally ruin my day. Also, suggesting that negative side effects are definitely an indicator of a positive response is pretty silly.

[James Light]

Hello again.

I'm back again. I've read the new replies and I'm reconsidering what is the real source of my affections. Though many of them appeared almost instantly after the LSD accident I describe in my first post (as I say, an HPPD frame). chrono, I can be almost sure it was LSD (had lots of experience with the substance and it matches the experiences of others with it, friends and people whose experiences I've read on Erowid, for example.).

With what you've said, probably an important factor in my ailments has been the damage induced through severe anxiety and depression, which started after the accident and got aggravated with MDMA and amphetamine (or amphetamine like substances) abuse. The anxiety and the fear caused by the experience was so much that I could feel terrible desperation when remembering what I had lived during that LSD trip. It would move me to tears and if no one was looking I would feel more comfortable in a fetal position. I've made peace more and more with the visions I had that day since then, and now I think I'm almost fine. So maybe LSD did not cause the damage, but the anxiety, depression and fear that derived form the psychological trauma of the experience.

Though I am pretty sure that the depression, and anxiety (that may have very caused the brain fog) were directly and immediately increased by the amphetamines and MDMA. Maybe I have a taken a few more pills. Who knows.

Saha, I'm more and more considering to see a doctor, though I insist in seeing one without taboos. I don't really want to explain my experience to someone who considers the experiences and ways of tradition and custom the only valid ones.

Having said that, I've started a more formal exercise program. I'm beginning with three days a week, one hour, aerobic exercise; and I'll try to increase to one hour daily, either aerobic or wight lifting.

As for the noos and other treatments, I took Selegiline (as Niar from abbot labs) for three days. I had a terrible experience witht his substance (por maybe it wasn't really Selegiline actually, what I took), and I will create another thread to explain my experience and probably warn other users about abbot labs products. I've ddiscontinued ALCAR since after the Selegiline, it seems to have 'stopped working'. I ordered also Alpha GPC, and it's on its way. I wanted to ordered more lion's mane (seems to be working after two weeks, I know it maybe should be too soon to notice the effects, but so it seems.)

Ark, how can you be so sure of what you are saying about the 5-HT receptors? Any literature on that you can share online? I also think next month I'll order some bacopa online. Ashwaganda too, if my wallet allows it.

chrono, I haven't finished reading the info from the thread you posted, but I'll get back to it.

Thanks. I'll report back.

PS: I forgot, I bought ALA a week ago, and sicne I suspended ALCAR I've been taking this alone with lion's mane. It works wonderfully. It increases my mental energy and makes A LOT of the brain fog and slow brain syndrome go away. It doesn't do much to reduce anxiety, though. Waht do you think about this?

[ultranaut]

I'm no expert, but it sounds more like PTSD induced by an intense and negative psychedelic experience and then exacerbated with amphetamine use.

How are you sleeping? I suspect a regular 8+ hour sleep schedule would do you quite a bit of good.

[nito]

Hello again.

I'm back again. I've read the new replies and I'm reconsidering what is the real source of my affections. Though many of them appeared almost instantly after the LSD accident I describe in my first post (as I say, an HPPD frame). chrono, I can be almost sure it was LSD (had lots of experience with the substance and it matches the experiences of others with it, friends and people whose experiences I've read on Erowid, for example.).

With what you've said, probably an important factor in my ailments has been the damage induced through severe anxiety and depression, which started after the accident and got aggravated with MDMA and amphetamine (or amphetamine like substances) abuse. The anxiety and the fear caused by the experience was so much that I could feel terrible desperation when remembering what I had lived during that LSD trip. It would move me to tears and if no one was looking I would feel more comfortable in a fetal position. I've made peace more and more with the visions I had that day since then, and now I think I'm almost fine. So maybe LSD did not cause the damage, but the anxiety, depression and fear that derived form the psychological trauma of the experience.

Though I am pretty sure that the depression, and anxiety (that may have very caused the brain fog) were directly and immediately increased by the amphetamines and MDMA. Maybe I have a taken a few more pills. Who knows.

Saha, I'm more and more considering to see a doctor, though I insist in seeing one without taboos. I don't really want to explain my experience to someone who considers the experiences and ways of tradition and custom the only valid ones.

Having said that, I've started a more formal exercise program. I'm beginning with three days a week, one hour, aerobic exercise; and I'll try to increase to one hour daily, either aerobic or wight lifting.

As for the noos and other treatments, I took Selegiline (as Niar from abbot labs) for three days. I had a terrible experience witht his substance (por maybe it wasn't really Selegiline actually, what I took), and I will create another thread to explain my experience and probably warn other users about abbot labs products. I've ddiscontinued ALCAR since after the Selegiline, it seems to have 'stopped working'. I ordered also Alpha GPC, and it's on its way. I wanted to ordered more lion's mane (seems to be working after two weeks, I know it maybe should be too soon to notice the effects, but so it seems.)

Ark, how can you be so sure of what you are saying about the 5-HT receptors? Any literature on that you can share online? I also think next month I'll order some bacopa online. Ashwaganda too, if my wallet allows it.

chrono, I haven't finished reading the info from the thread you posted, but I'll get back to it.

Thanks. I'll report back.

PS: I forgot, I bought ALA a week ago, and sicne I suspended ALCAR I've been taking this alone with lion's mane. It works wonderfully. It increases my mental energy and makes A LOT of the brain fog and slow brain syndrome go away. It doesn't do much to reduce anxiety, though. Waht do you think about this?

Which ALA do you take? The r version?

[Saha]

Saha, I'm more and more considering to see a doctor, though I insist in seeing one without taboos. I don't really want to explain my experience to someone who considers the experiences and ways of tradition and custom the only valid ones.

Well, if you find one, that it is great. But why do you need to share your experiences? Just tell your symptomps(what is bothering you) apart HPPD, of course.
My point of view is very similar to this one, mentioned above.

Conversely, if you're a young man who admits to long-term multisubstance (ab)use, you'll definitely be attaching a stigma to your medical records, with possible implications for how doctors will look at you down the road, and even what treatment options may be available (the leap from 'drug user' to 'drug seeker' is a natural one for many doctors). It depends on the doctor you have now, but also those you'll have down the road. Also, my highly subjective opinion is that most doctors have a hard enough time treating common problems, and probably won't have any treatment ideas specifically for the kind of obscure damage that may or may not have occurred

I don't see the difference in curing drug-induced depression and any other depression... But I can be wrong, of course, as I am no doctor.

Does finding doctor with open view to drugs worth it? (I would bet that it's impossible in my country(Russia), but things are definitely different in the USA.)

Anyway, I would recommend you to see a doctor somewhat quicker.

[Ark]

google, MDMA 5 HT clipping Damage & stress


Good luck

[James Light]

Hi, I'm reporting back again.

I'm currently exercising more adn with more discilpline, though I've skipped this week altogether due to and excessive amount of work. I haven't seen a docto yet, but I'm looking for one that is convenient to me. As I've said, I'd eventually have to tell any doctor about the origin of my ailments, that's necessary for diagnostic and prognosis, and confidence in a patient-doctor relationship.

Studying for my admission exam helped. Man, it was DIFFICULT, but I feel yet better. I also have bought other Noos wich have helped:

Alpha-GPC: some one suggested this at the beginning, I got my hands on a little of it, and IT WORKED. A lot.

Aniracetam: I bought this mostly to try a new racetam for the days I had to do lots of work, but it seems to me it's having a positive long lasting effect. I've only taken it three days in a week, but I feel improvemente.

As for ALA, I'm taking simply ALA. I've also been taking ginkgo for four days, so it's still too soon to say if I've seen improvement.

People, I'm doing much better now. ALCAR, ALA, Alpha-GPC, studying, exercising, fish oil, meditation... All this has helped so far. My memory is still relativelely terrible when compared with a normal person, but I'm doing kind of better. Depression has lowered too. It has probably taken a different form, but it is a mild depression of being aware you got to change as a person. I think it's better now.

I really thank you all for the advice and the listening. I'll be around.

I'm going to tell, you I really think I could have done this without the supplements. They were an integral part. I'm pretty sure without them I wouldn't have eeven been able too exercise (too tired, depressed and without will-power the whole day to do it) or to meditate (got aslept 5 mins into meditation, could not stop the distracting thoughts and the terrible anxiety)

[J. Galt]

The amphetamines were likely the culprit rather than the LSD. The symptoms you describe are probably the result of fried dopamine neurons. Street amphetamines are excitotoxic, causing temporary downregulation of dopamine receptors, and, more importantly, induce apoptosis (death) of these cells similar to the effects of Parkinson's. The long term side effects of amphetamine excitotoxicity are often permanent, though brain plasticity is a remarkable thing and one hesitates to speak in absolutes.

I second the advice of previous members who have suggested , pir- and ani- racetams, Alpha GPC, and fish oil. Would also suggest looking into CDP-choline (aka Citicoline), PQQ, DHA-optimized phosphatdylsetine, Lion's Mane mushroom extract, and lithium ororate for brain repair.

I'm sorry to hear about your situation, and wish you best of luck in improving it in the future.

[Evarrriste]

Any update on your condition James? 

Very curious to see whether your symptoms are improving or not and what is helping. 

Thanks.