I deeply don't want to spike your hopes when it could be a completely different reason for your symptoms, but I have been curing it with NAC and rehydration, and possibly because of detoxification but maybe due to other activities of NAC. And I mean
curing it, I am a different person. A lot of it is down to several years of intense introspection that allows me to rip out very unhelpful background premises in my thinking that inform my social behaviour, but the NAC has allowed that introspection to finally, really, pay off because of the inconsistent but sometimes massive deficiency in working memory and attention.
I'd first bear in mind that Aspergers is a label, not an explanation: i.e. all it means is you have a certain inventory of symptoms. I strongly theorize mine to either be caused by an inborn weakener immune system or inadequate metabolism of certain chemicals caused by poisoning, or the reverse: poisoning occuring because of the already weakener immune system. Or both in a circle. It needn't even be a dramatically weaker immune system, just enough to make a difference over time. I also am very strongly suspicious that my chronic fatigue which started at 14, and aspergers, have the exact same root cause, be it what I just described or something else entirely.
I believe if the body is poisoned in a slowly eroding, year-after-year accumulating manner it will make sacrifices where it has a choice. In my case it was definitely my working memory, as I've recently realised. I think there may be more of us that have this problem but different sacrifices are made in different parts of the brain. Or it could not be what the body does but where the poison decants itself. Either way, it could manifest itself in various abnormalities and not everyone winds up with aspergers, but something else, but the root cause of poisoning is what they have in common.
Before someone flips out: no i'm not sweeping all disorders of the brain under the rug of 'poisoning', I would never do any such thing. I am theorizing, and
then only theorizing for myself based on incontrovertable personal experience.
Just want to go through a checklist to see if anything hits, i.e. there are similarities between us or not and there may well not be: were you bad at sports in school? Could it be plausable to say your immune system feels weaker in some way? Do you ever get minor ticks that feel metaphorical to reaching for a yawn in way of reaching for a satisfaction that eludes you by repeating or trying to achieve a reflex, such as trying to make yourself shiver in certain places or trying to squint in a certain way?
Incidentally I went through school perceived as stupid, and it was maddenning because I was extremely intelligent, but also
slow and unmotivated. I couldn't flourish or express myself, it was like trying to play an online video game and you have enormous skill but it keeps lagging like hell so you can't show what you're made of, and then you feel 'why bother'. That's probably why I ended up having most of my life on the internet, where I can take as much time as I want to type out my thoughts. But I say this also to say that many aspergers sufferers
are recognised for being outright wizards at certain things and don't live sad lives, so it's possible that it is not essential to aspergers (or people just like to misdiagnose intelligence as it?).
Just want to restress that this is only wholely applicable to me. This is not science, except insofar that science is a method and I'm applying it exclusively to myself with what I have available to me. I hope it applies to more than just me, because it could be of a great help, but I'm not sure.
Edited by caruga, 25 May 2011 - 10:56 AM.