jadamgo: While I agree that in an ideal world, CBT or a similar approach would be more desirable, from past experiences I am far from convinced that it would help plus I lack the time and flexibility to commit to regular sessions (quite aside the inherent difficulty of finding a good shrink). While I know that my fear is irrational (blindingly obvious), attacking the fear has not yielded much - not even being shitfaced or for that matter on benzos changes much at all and exposure therapy, well let's just say I cannot get myself to put me into the exposure (if I could, it would likely not be an issue).
So I am looking for another way - while I have shied away from strong dopaminergics and serotonergics (think Cocaine and MDMA) for fairly obvious reasons, the usual reports about their describe to some degree what I am after but I can do without the high if I can instead get a sustainable regime to get some of the benefits. As there have been quite a few reports of increased sociability/communication with the racetams, I figured that would be an obvious next avenue. For that matter, I guess I will give aniracetam a shot...
Jchief: Where can I get Sulbutiamine? As for the Tongkat Ali, while I am convinced that I have low testosterone I want to stay away from Testosterone boosting regimes without medical supervision. Sadly, the docs refuse to consider that as a problem to be fixed and truth to be told, it does not bother me aside of the lack in assertiveness that manifests itself in many situations, really. The rest of testosterone's effects I can gladly do without (I for my life fail to see why it should be desirable to boost libido to teenage levels, for one), so if I can fix this one point without messing with hormones, all the better.
Sulbutiamine can be had from a variety of places. I, personally, have purchased from NutraPlanet. It comes in powder form (usually with a 300mg scoop). I place 3 scoops into some sweet tea and chug it down. The taste is very chalky and bitter aka nasty. In the future I will be placing my orders from Cerebral Health where I currently buy my other nootropics and have been very pleased with the speed of delivery and effectiveness of the products. With regard to testosterone boosting it wouldn't be so significant that you'd have to worry about too much as it's not nearly as powerful as synthetic steroids or hormone precursors. It's an herbal supplement with literally no side effects other than possible irritable behavior at doses much higher than necessary. Eurycoma Longifolia is the "official" name for it. Apart from the testosterone-related effects, the antimalarial, antibacterial, antipyretic, antiulcer, antitumor, and cytotoxic properties are
well documented. The best price I've found is
here but you'll see they are out of stock until appx Nov 15. No surprise really. It's a very popular supplement in my circles.
You might also look into NADH. NADH stands for "nicotinamide adenine dinucleotide (NAD) + hydrogen (H)." This chemical occurs naturally in the body and plays a role in the chemical process that generates energy. People use NADH supplements as medicine. NADH is used for improving mental clarity, alertness, concentration, and memory; as well as for treating Alzheimer’s disease. Because of its role in energy production, NADH is also used for improving athletic endurance and treating chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS).
Or possibly DMAA. Per wiki: "Despite not being a catecholamine, methylhexanamine exhibits structural similarity to other monoamines such as phenethylamine and amphetamine, which may account for its similar mode of action to these compounds. The only structural difference between methylhexanamine and amphetamine is that methylhexanamine lacks the phenyl or benzene ring which is present in all phenethylamine derivatives, including all amphetamines, containing only 4 of the 6 carbons of the phenyl ring. The difference between geranamine and propylhexedrine is that is lacks two carbons that create a cyclohexyl ring in propylhexedrine and a methyl group on the amine group. Despite these differences, it has a similar mode of action, being a stimulant and having norepinephrinergic effects."
Edited by JChief, 11 November 2011 - 10:37 AM.
