Certainly you are willing to meet her without full knowledge. We do not have anything close to full knowledge about anything. Even if you found out you liked her enough to marry her, you would be far from knowing her fully. When I became a Christian it was just like this. I was raised in a strong Atheist home and had no faith. There was no God. One night when on the back seat of a bus, in a rain storm I said this prayer. "God , if there is a God and if there is one, I don't have any faith, or perhaps a very very little. I put it in you." I meet God and my life has never been the same. We can argue tell the sun comes up and I love to do it but it comes down to faith. Any one who wants to meet God can with only a little faith. You will have doubts along the way, but you can know and experience God.
I think it's beautiful that you have found God. Honestly, I very much think you've found a precious gem.
And I wish all of us could find God, and I wish that the God we could all find would be a loving God. A God who is beautiful, a God who would not tolerate such vast, pointless suffering. A God who would relieve us of some of that heartbreak you feel. I feel. Our planet is so very precious, yet look at the mess we've made of it.
Since you have found that beautiful God we seek, maybe you could say a prayer for the rest of us who are not so lucky. Maybe you could use some of the divine faith we lack to help relieve a little of the world's suffering. Small things first. I'll bet that everyone here who has searched honestly for God would be more than happy to have your kindness and prayers and in such small ways. Even we who don't know if God exists or not, we who doubt, we who hate God, why not be kind to us with your divine knowledge and power you claim rather than hatefulness you so often display here? Where is your love, Shadowhawk?
I pray to God everyday to God to God to God -- even though -- like many others here have plainly stated -- I've never found any trace of divinity. No answers for me. Silence. God's silence. I don't know if God exists or not -- and my prayers to God find me no closer to faith in God. My prayers to God to help heal the suffering world feel like wasted time and dashed hope. My prayers seem to do nothing for anyone, for anything. My prayers are so constant yet feel so fragile, so fleeting, so very much like uselessness. I even wonder if the act of prayer to the silent God is a mental disease I've somewhere acquired. Yet to offer relief to the suffering of sentient creatures -- help us even in some tiny way, please help, dear God -- this mantra remains my consistent daily prayer. Sometimes I pray all day long -- truthfully, maybe in deep mental sickness -- and in every action I take I say to myself let this be my humble prayer to the vast, unimaginably huge God of the universe. Yet still God appears as nothing to me. Deadness.
Since my prayers haven't worked, I'll try your prayers, Shadowhawk, and maybe through your prayers I'll move in closer to the faith you've found. We've nothing to lose by praying, we've no faith, nothing to lose beyond the hope already lost.
I wish I was more eloquent -- and I know some of these words may sound like some silly, cheese-ball bullshit. But I do mean my words, they're not empty and they're not lies, they're uttered with absolute sincerity. So what if they're melodramatic and exaggerated: I search for God with my open and deeply broken heart.
Rumi:
"Dear soul, if you were not friends with the vast nothing inside, why would you always be casting your net into it, and waiting so patiently?"
Edited by sthira, 30 July 2015 - 03:42 AM.
