Hey.
First of all, excuse my horrible english.
I suffer from depression, anxiety and brain fog. Since my childhood I´ve been a person with tendency to have a depressive condition (I like cloudy and rainy days, hahaha!!!) and poor sleep it has also been a constant, with daily nightmares since I was a boy.
From the 18 to the 23 years old (university) I discover "joints". During this five years I smoked hash (less the two first years and intensively the other three on a daily basis regime). I got good grades and in general I wasn´t the type of person that goes to partys in the weekends. No alcohol and no tobacco. Only joints. At 23 I quit cannabis (from one day to the next). Since that year I have not returned to smoke joints and I will not do in the future anymore. Quitting from hash wasn´t difficult. Maybe I was a little bit more irritable but not severe symptoms of withdrawal, though it is true that at the time of quit cannabis I started to smoke tobacco on a regular basis during two years until 25 years.
Right now I´m 33 years old. I practice sports regulary and my type of life is very common without excesses. The problem is that depression, anxiety and brain fog are becoming more severes. I work as a lawyer in a real state company. As you can imagine stress is the habitual thing. One year ago I discovered nootropics and started trying some compounds. Firstly I tried: Piracetam + Alpha GPC + ALCAR in different quantities, alone and mixing them. With this first attempt I tried to avoid my memory issues. No results, apart from headaches in most of the cases.
It´s curious, because the first two years after quitting pot, my mind and memory were well (in general during my 5 years of cannabis consumption I have a good memory and better mental attitude). But these last years my memory goes worse with moments of pronunced brain fog, horrible recall and poor verbal fluency. At this point I started thinking that maybe depression and anxiety were the cause (or at least an important cause) of my problems. So I tried: bacopa, vitamin B, L-theanine, ashwagandha and gotu kola with no results (yes, I know that the 2 last substances were not a good idea if I want to fight against anxiety).
Recently I have tried the "Uridine stack" with no results:
Uridine + Multivitamin + Omega 3 + Vitamin E + Alpha GPC + Magnesium L-Threonathe.
Right now I´m trying Rhodiola only ("Arctic Root" from Swedish Herbal Institute) at the suggested dose of 2 capsules per day. No effects after two weeks.
I think that I´m in a vicious circle where depression and anxiety "feed" brain fog and brain fog "feed" depression and anxiety (I´m a perfeccionist person and see that I can´t do my best in the job is really frustrating). At this point I start to think in every single possibilty that could explain my problems: I really damage my brain with hash and this is not reversible?? Is depression and anxiety destroying my mental health?? I am starting to suffer Alzheimer?? (Yes, I´m a litlle bit hypochondriac).
I know that after quitting cannabis anxiety raises. Yes, maybe after quitting pot and tobacco my irrritability and anxiety got worse but in general my memory and mental health was better the two years after quitting pot than now and that is not very logic. Could anxiety and depression in the long term be so powerful to destroy mental capacity??
Raising serotonin is a must for a person like me. I avoid 5-htp because of the heart valve damage and escitalopram (or any other SSRI) it´s not the "ideal" option according to the possible side effects. Dopamine is also a topic that worries me. Even though cannabis raises dopamine after his consumption, it is said that dopamine depletes after quitting pot. Should I take L-Tyrosine??
I´ve been reading about serotonin and dopamine imbalances after quitting pot and I´m really confused about the brain chemistry in these circumstances (contradictory information). Which of the two neurotransmitters is depleted by cannabis?? Serotonin or dopamine or both?? Most problematic is to determine the correct supplements to fix these imbalances: Taking L-Tyrosine increases dopamine but depletes serotonin and taking 5-htp (or L-Tryptophan) increases serotonin but depletes dopamine (5-htp has the added problem of the heart valve damage).
The other point that worries me is the topic of the endocannabinoid system and the possibilty of restoring to normal levels the CBs (specially the CB1 receptor) using CB agonist supplements. I must recognize that I don´t know so much of this item but searching information all around Internet I find news saying that Green Tea (EGCG and EGC) is a cb agonist. What do you think about supplementing with this?? I remind a recently scientific study which says that the combination of Greeen Tea + L-Theanine was good for memory impairment. The problems: green tea is cancerous on a daily basis at some quantities and also green tea increase anxiety and that is a serious problem in my case. Any alternatives?? I think that the endocannabinoid system is very important because it is the one who takes in charge "neurogenesis", so in theory, a weak endocannabinoid system couldn´t fix the brain via neurogenesis.
I would like to finish adding that I suffer eventually migraines (very few) and the last was four years ago. Even though, right now I have persistents little headaches the whole day. When I take supplements (in general any supplement) headaches tends to increase and brain fog deteriorates. I also, start having serious problems with my back. Right now I´m in bed after visiting my doctor who gives me 4 shots in an attempt of reducing my hurt. In addition my sleep is not good. Eventually I suffer from insomnia but in general I sleep the whole night. The problem is that sleep is not restful (I wake up with a really bad sensation similar to a headache and dizziness).
Any suggestion or opinion would be appreciated. Also any stack or supplements recommendation to attack my problems effectively and safely, would be grateful.
Thanks.
P.S. 6 months ago I start meditation and yoga classes. For problems of schedule I have to quit them Let´s hope that I can return to practice them shortly, specially meditation. I think that it can helps.