My left eyelid is twitching as hell and I am feeling so... my self, I'm walking outside listening to music on my headset and feel the sense of worry less attitude that I had during my early 20's. Also, the other day, I took my daily dose right before one to one class, with an English student, I usually find it really hard to get through because by nature I am restless and apathetic to the point where it impedes everything I want to do in life, but I actually managed to just be " in the moment" so to say - without having the constant urge to get away, only to find that that urges persists when I get away and start my next task. I cant call it anxiety because it really isn't that type of anxiety, its restlessness, bad memory, especially spatial memory, and I don't know whether there are any differences with regards to aforementioned, but it seems to have helped me out of this horrible mode of being in which my mind is like a restless track running on top of everything else I am doing and constantly distracting me from being present and just letting go of that whole never-ending toxic discursive dialogue I have with my self about absolutely nothing productive (which often is not negative or positive, just distracting in that it battles for your attention)
This is a premature statement and may need meed qualification later, in the name of objectivity. Also, I am taking Iodine and some other supplements, all of which might possibly have an effect. That said though, I've taken them all before, and it is usually within a few hours after dosing the NSI that I sense the relief hitting me - especially if I've had a few days break. I havent had any anxiety or any lethargy. Quite the opposite, today I was feeling apathetic, lying in bed, wanting to study, not being able to, just having a block, but about an hour after taking 50mg orally, I suddenly felt a lot more collected. A lot more in charge of my emotions. Oh, and music is very pleasurable and I've been enjoying my songs more than in the past, with less hitting the next button that quickly.
Again, I want to make sure I explicitly write that these are early days of experimenting and it will take a longer time before I can say for sure whether this is stemming from the NSI. Take my small report as that.
My left eyelid is twitching as hell and I am feeling so... my self, I'm walking outside listening to music on my headset and feel the sense of worry less attitude that I had during my early 20's. Also, the other day, I took my daily dose right before one to one class, with an English student, I usually find it really hard to get through because by nature I am restless and apathetic to the point where it impedes everything I want to do in life, but I actually managed to just be " in the moment" so to say - without having the constant urge to get away, only to find that that urges persists when I get away and start my next task. I cant call it anxiety because it really isn't that type of anxiety, its restlessness, bad memory, especially spatial memory, and I don't know whether there are any differences between them, but it seems to have helped me out of this horrible mode of being in which my mind is like a restless track running on top of everything else I am doing and constantly distracting me from being present and just letting go of that whole never-ending toxic discursive dialogue I have with my self about absolutely nothing productive.
It's this shit, which isn't straight out depression, as I don't feel sad or depressed, but lethargic and unable to keep focus. Also, often quite irritable, once I need to try and keep a focus on something. Some symptoms of depression are there, like lack of interest in what I might have had before, yet when I'm not trying to focus on work or studies, my mood is OK - albeit sometimes with a restless vibe to it. It doesn't' suit the criteria for anxiety either, but I do have ADHD which doesnt respond well to stimulants and was handed out without a lot of work. I have always had extremely bad spatial memory, very bad short-term memory, despite an ability to remember theories and texts quite fine as long as I understand them, but bad executive functioning, short-term memory, mood regulation. I grew up with stressors, not just your average stress, but the kind which makes you grow up a little quicker without getting into further details, also a few years of living rough and having a habit of popping some downers in the evening for sleep, my reason for trying this NSI-198 is due to its possible healing effect on the hippo.
This is a premature statement and may need meed qualification later, in the name of objectivity. Also, I am taking Iodine and some other supplements, all of which might possibly have an effect. That said though, I've taken them all before, and it is usually within a few hours after dosing the NSI that I sense the relief hitting me - especially if I've had a few days break. I haven't had any anxiety or any lethargy. Quite the opposite, today I was feeling apathetic, lying in bed, wanting to study, not being able to, just having a block, but about an hour after taking 50mg orally, I suddenly felt a lot more collected. A lot more in charge of my emotions. Oh, and music is very pleasurable. Its notably the restlessness and a little increase in healthy assertiveness
Again, I want to make sure I explicitly write that these are early days of experimenting and it will take a longer time before I can say for sure whether this is stemming from the NSI. Take my small report as that. It may be bypassing. It may be mood. It may be that its summer outside. I will update more if it continues to seem to have an effect.
Does anyone else feel a noticable effect about 30-90 minutes ingesting the NSI-189? Or is it mostly accumulative with you guys?
Edited by toonamy, 04 May 2018 - 01:40 PM.