It has been more than a while since I read my private messages or posts in the thread. Sorry for those that wait for NSI-189, I will send it and give them a full refund asap! I had some odd issue (to say the least) together with an accident, that had me in the hospital for a few days. Probably as many here I have tried far more chemicals that the average person can think of, but I had something unexpected happening to me trying the mood stabilizer topiramate.
The easiest way to describe it is some weeks of mild psychosis, hearing no voices (thank you very much, and some very minor illusions) in the "beautiful mind" movie spy theme... I never had any prior issue and I am very down to earth, but after getting some accurate psychological analysis (commercial) for a project, I started thinking (a week maybe after taking topiramate) that "some people" got aware that I can "possibly help them" and are after me with force, or "bribes" to do so. It sounds/seems to me ridiculous now... But at the time I was using topiramate seemed very real! I was semi-functional as they were days the paranoia(at the extreme, ideas that I was about to get been killed) was at the extreme, following days about my importance as a "strategic thinker" :P and some technical knowledge I have, but the story was unreal and made me realize I have to be even more careful of what I will be trying in the future...
From statistics, acute psychosis happens in about 1/130 people trying this mood stabilizer without having a prior history of the illness. Myself I do not even need a mood stabilizer but it has some anxiolytic properties that have helped a friend, and thought I have tried a ton of chemicals with no serious issues, what a short trial with low doses mood stabilizer could possibly do?
Looking the side effects of any drug there are some serious one mentioned, and you might be the one having the rare strong one/s, and even experienced users must do a lot of research (somehow I did not pay attention of the psychosis side effect and search about it later) to confirm my idea that the "weird ideas" were from topiramate. Thankfully all the odd thinking pattern disappeared only after two days after the last dose.
As I said it has been a while, but I will get back to PMs tomorrow! I also took a necessary... break from work. Thankfully no one realized anything... When I was in front of people I knew for a long time my behavior was (thankfully) normal.