Hi,
let me introduce myself
i am 22 years old, i am a swedish student (not for long i think :() and i was poisoned by parathion.
you ask how? well this is really stupid, my best friend who was a lot into "nootropics" told me he use drugs to improve his brain and i was interested a lot.
one day he brought what was an acetylcholineesterase inhibitor drug, i don't remember it's full name (something like G.....ine), he told me it's safe and all.
i took 2 tablets and 1 hour later i was in the hospital praying for my life, it started with heavy eye twitching, then spasms all over my body and my vision starting becoming blurry i started vomiting and my friend immediatly called the emergency, i was rushed to the emergency room and he told them i took that and they administered a drug thru IV.
i started feeling better and coming back to normal and the doctors told me it's an extreme allergic reaction and they kept me 1 day in the hospital for checkup.
not even 1 day after, i had a severe relapse, vision starting to become blurry again and my body was litteraly jumping from the stretcher!
I was readminsitered the same stuff again and they decided to make a blood test for toxic analysis, what they found is presence of parathion which is acetylcholineesterase inhibitor!
the doctor told me that i took a permanent toxic and i will have to take a treatment maybe for the rest of my life just to survive, i couldn't believe what i heard, i was extremely shocked and so was my friend.
we told him that i took the tablets he gave me and he agreed to make a test, it was indeed the parathion and my friend says this isn't what he ordered at all! he ordered the stuff on ebay from some nootropic vendor.
hopefully for him he didn't try the new batch but as for me the doctors gave me atropine to take everyday for at least 6 months and then come back for further checkup if the toxin got out of my system (the doctor says it's irreversible and will never get out of my system but he said time could also help very slow healing).
i know live a total horror story, it's not even a nightmare because nightmares do end, this doesn't end and seems to last forever.
the day i rushed to the hospital was 9 months ago, when i had a new appointment with the doctor he said he wouldn't give the drug for some hours and see if the symptoms come back, and they did, the toxin was still here! he gave me another 6 month prescription and he didn't tell me it's gonna be fine, he was straight with me and told me i will have to live with this forever.
but this isn't the end of the story, since this has happened, my brain has been worse than ever.
i will just list my symptoms that are always with me 24/7 :
- my cognitive function is highly disabled, i do not think anymore, i can't retain memory anymore, i read something it takes me a very long time to understand and even more to learn!
i have an hard time making sentences and my sociability is now zero, this is why i lost my friends
- i have no pleasure of anything, i enjoy nothing and nothing makes me laugh really
- i don't feel stuff anymore, i can touch objects but i don't feel them anymore, this is really strange and i have this with all my senses, my hearing is worthless i passed from something like stereo to mono and my smell my taste are almost nonexistent
- my mouth and nose are always dry and this makes me drink a lot of water all the day
- my vision is weird, the colors are ugly and this makes me even more depressive
i also have frequent flash of light coming out of nowhere
- i can never concentrate, i can just start watching a movie or a show and 2 mins later i need to do something else, i just switch to another task
- my brain is always racing, i feel speedy and never tired, i always need to think about something and this makes me never sleep, i sleep only 45 mins every 2-3 days, and my 45 mins sleep is interrupted 2 times, i wish i could just sleep forever and forget all this but my brain wants me to endure this horror all the time
i could go on for even more symptoms but i think this pretty much explain the situation i am, this is what i experience everyday for 9 months, the doctor said its brain damage due to poisoning and nothing can be done.
since now my life has been an horror, my best friend is still helping me but most of my friends don't understand my situation and stopped communicating with me.
i am not the man i was, my house is now a mess, i barely clean it (i used to but now i don't know it seems impossible to do it, i start cleaning and then switch to something else), i don't take care of me anymore, i don't study anymore too and everyday is an horror because i enjoy nothing and every second of my life is void of joy.
i am terrified by this situation and i am totally unable to do anything about it, i went on this forum because this is were my friend learnt about nootropic and acetylcholineesterase inhibitors, if anyone has an idea to reverse permanently the toxin and suppress it from my brain, i do not hope a lot but i would rather post something than stay alone without any clue.
thank you for reading me and sorry for my crappy english, it used to be very good but my memory problems are makign me having a hard time writing in english and even my native language
NOTE: IF YOU READ THE REST OF THIS THREAD YOU'LL REALIZE THIS IS MOST LIKELY A FABRICATION AND AN UNTRUE ACCOUNT
Edited by manic_racetam, 15 January 2013 - 08:29 PM.