Good morning everyone
My first post
I am 24 years old and Ive been reading this forum for 2 years or something..
Had 8 years depression tried every antidepressant nothing worked
My depression condidtion was :
Body dysmorphic disorder since the age of 16 till 24
Compulsive thinking since the age of 6 when parents broke up and
compulaive perfectionism (age of 6) which i lost with 16 when dymophobic disorder evolved
Mid-depression (according diagnose) 16-24
Or even earlier :0
How i felt: lethargic, no interests in life,living in a cage (emotionally) feeling emotionaly
Numb .. I could do sports and everything but i couldnt live in the moment or enjoy anything at all . Couldnt sleep because of compulsive thinking
No concentration while listening to television or person accept if it was realllllly interesting ..
No libido and the standard stuff ..
I always was a sporty person and im still .. So on the one hand i was lethargic but on the other i did a lot of sports in some phases so i could loose bodyfat so i can get my body dysmorphic discorder better.
Heres the thing:
A year ago i tried my first experiment: vit b 12 plus folic acid
Very disappointed didnt work..
5 weeks ago NAC!!!! (N-acetyl-cystein)
After one hour i could concentrate . After 3 hours i could live in the moment and didnt feel social phobic and felt really euphoric about the positive warmness inmyself ... Since 5 weeks permanenlty a great condition!!
I take 1 till 1.5 mg everyday with vit c and vit b6 and milk thistle since yesterday
And newrly every day i felt good (cognitive wise and emotionally i would say permanently a positive feeling)
The thing is..before i took nac the first time(5weeks ago) I used 2 sleep 12 hours (with trittco) and 10 without (but woke up many times) and that for maaaaanny years
And now i sleep 3 hours and i feel really fit - (hypomania anyone? .. I talk a lot, i am very fast . I can concentrate 200 % , focus for hours on one subject .. I think my father used to have achd or bipolar 2 .. Im not sure what he has because he smokes everyday ganja and drinks 2 bottles of wine so asking him wouldnt
Make sense ...
Yesterday i had my blood test to see if i have amino acid defiiency (im pretty sure glutathione)
And other things like seretonin and so on
I stopped smoking since the 22.02
And im sure i slept actually 8 hours through on nac only back then but now still after 2 weeks of smoke abstinence no sign of having long sleeps accept taking trittco... I took ashwaganda today but that helped only the 2days after stopping smoking (soft laser therapy) once which is 10 days ago ... So i dont know ...i was hypomanic before the smoking therapy when i could sleep longer ( for the record: hypomania i feel since taking nac the first time) or drinking really heavy alcohol in my deprrssion state and feeling really good the day after but on the day of drinking feeling like real crap
Hmm i feel really great but i dont sleep a lot
I would say emotionally im in a much better state but im still emotionally dull like in my depression state but with a positive vibe 2 it
I can laugh more, i can cry now but i only have tears but dont feel any sadness.. Since nac permanently a positive overall feeling with no real downs like i used to know them ..
Of the age of 16-24 i maybe cried 1 or two times where i felt sadness but it was dulled also ...
Libido since nac is a up and down i would say..
Sometimes reaaaallly good.. And sometimes crap (i would say with porn its easier 2 get a better errection as with girlfriend ) ..- i know porn is not good . I was on abstinence thru the site yourbrainonporn.com but i didnt help back then ... I think i should check my weener properly..soon
So my questions
)) -would be soo happy if i get answers
1.
so if i take nac and that helps immensive- i probably have a glutathione defiecy - right?
Does nac. Help so the glutathione gets in my body or brain where it should has to be ? I read something that a reduced gluthione oxidised after 1.6 minutes .. So if i feel good through nac alrwady .. That means also that the gluthione is higher intercellucar?
2.
What else should i consider taking if u read my story? Anything better for me? - im looking for the perfect solutions through doctors and especially through here because what u PEOPLE write is soooo FANTASTIC. I cant thank xou enough
!!
3.
S-acetyl-glutathione anyone? Seems to be a high quality product which should be the best form to increase glutathione .. The brand is eumetabol .. German site .. Maybe u guys know anything about s-acetyl-glutathione
So are there any supplements 2 take so i can get away from the dulled emotional condition?
4.
anything to take to help my libido ..
Any suggestions? L-carnitine-got them but only took them 1 time and already have them for a long time? Or a viagra 1 week therapy?
5.
What could i trY taking so i sleep more so i dont get up after 2-3 hours of sleep starting with full energy ...
My hypermania state :
Im quick, focused dont spend a lot of money have neaerly every smyptom what a hympomaniac should have except that i dont spend so much money on studf because
I dont have the money... I can be really energized but if i want to relax i am able to just sit on a sofa and relax so
I can switch
6.
I would like 2 know how many people on earth have a hypomania ... And is this a hypomanie if i dont have any depression episode at all??!???!??
Somewhere i read 1-3 % ? I think on wiki but a hypomania with depression episode ..
Would love 2 know something about this
.Cheers ! And im so looking foward 2
Your answers.. People here THANKS for this godly MASTER-Thread