Hello All, I have been a previous reader of these forums for a couple months and have just decided to make an account.
I bought 500g of piracetam a couple of weeks ago, with hope and a little too much faith in its ability to improve my cognitive functions.(I could've bought just 1 250g tub but was TOTALLY convinced it would work so I bought 500g). I am a 20 yr old male, 155ish lbs., 6' and very little body fat. I do cardio at least 3 times a week if I have time(some weeks none). I eat lunch and dinner, and take vitamins twice daily(from Standard Process), which include: Cod Liver oil, Catalyn, Hypothalamus PMG, Hypothalamex, Symplex M, Riboneucleic Acid, and their Bacopa and Kava stuff (don't argue with me on how effective these vitamins are, they're free of charge for me also). I am almost done with my associates and am taking Trigonometry, Physics, and Chemistry this semester, making A's in Physics and Trig, and a low B in Chemistry. Oh, and working a 50 hour week at a shop as mainly a janitor, and the odd jobs like oil changes, tire mounts, removing and replacing parts on the rare occasion.
I've had a social and general anxiety problem since I was a child, which has improved immensely since then. I also have had a history of major depression in grade school and up to 9th grade from bullies...Until I broke one day and gave him a stab with the tip of my pencil (I felt TERRIBLE and apologized, he didn't tell any of my authorities/teachers, thank god). Never got fucked with after that, that's for damn sure. From there on my depression got exponentially better(not exaggerating the exponential part). I hung out with the drug abusing group in like 10th grade and got into their lifestyle, like popping whatever pills were around and smoking weed EVERY DAY. Yeah its fucking stupid, even dumber, seeing as I was one of the best in my class. This abusing of drugs of course caused rebound depression. But ive learned a huge lesson from that and have been abstinent for a little over 2 years. (I still smoke cigarettes though :S)
So now here I was a couple weeks ago thinking that, "Hey maybe these nootropics would give me effects like the people on these forums are describing." So I bought a couple tubs, and some choline bitartrate/inositol mix from Vitamin Shoppe. I was doing about 500-800mg twice a day with 500mg of choline along with it. The first 2 days I felt GREAT and the effects I have noticed were synonymous with the positive effects of other posters. For the next 4 days after that I noticed I was getting brain fog, irritability, MAJOR depression, dry mouth, and other symptoms that I would associate with a "makes you retarded" dose of Benadryl(100-200mg it felt like). I attributed this to my Ach levels depleting so I upped my Choline bitartrate intake to 1500mg to counteract it. It didn't help so I came to the conclusion that I was overly sensitive to piracetam, and lowered my dosage to 400mg twice per day with the usual 1500mg's of choline bitartrate. the next 2 days were the same as before(this is I think the 8th day mark at the end of it), the usual anticholinergic symptoms.
By then I was a fucking trainwreck, too depressed to care for studies, wishing that God would kill me every day, and the stupidity caused by the anticholinergic effects intensified the depression. I THEN stopped all usage, and am back to the normal me.
One perspective of mine REALLY WANTS piracetam to work, but another perspective is afraid that I will get the same ol' usual, I FEEL RETARDED effects. Fast forward to two weeks later(today), I took a 50mg dose of piracetam about 3 hours ago, and felt as though I was spacing out more than usual, but am pretty sure it is just a placebo(I hope).
I am confused on whether I should throw all of my piracetam away(or give it away), or if I should continue experimenting with it in the micro/nano dose range. And I'm also scared that it might build up in my system to eventually give me the usual anticholinergic effects in the long run, maybe causing brain damage from those said effects.
Why brain damage you might ask? If you've ever abused Benadryl in your past (yeah I know it was retarded, but this was when I was like 15) youll know what I mean by "damage". :/
Yall can debate on the pharmacokinetics/pharmacology of why piracetam effects me in such a bad way, but I want your opinion on what I should do in regards to piracetam intake.
Thanks (beforehand) for each and every one of your perspectives that you might give regarding my situation. Im off to bed, c'yall tomorrow fellow longecitiors, longecitiers, w/e you might call it lol :P
Edited by dragomundo, 05 October 2014 - 06:02 AM.