I have been normal for all my life until 29 y/o.
In the past years I have developped a trauma and was prescribed antipsychotics, antidepressants, benzodiazepines. The actually caused and worsened problems.
Three months ago I was prescribed ciprofloxacin + NSAID + benzo + SSRI. I yesterday discovered this is a criminal combination. CF is a toxic antibiotic, causing psychosis and cns damage and mitochondrial damage. It is ill-advised in benzo withdrawal for complicating it. NSAIDS make it even more toxic. CF increases serum levels of antipsychotics.
In the weeks after CF I lost my self:
- I developped all kinds of physical, cognitive and emotional problems and eventually psychosis.
- Dr: more meds! Forced benzo's and antipsychotics led to more emotional, cognitive and motor problems and extreme inbetween dose withdrawal.
- Dr: more meds! I relapsed into psychosis right after increase.
- Dr; more meds! I recovered a little and refused.
Since 2 weeks I am completely without meds. Funny enough this healed my psychosis and most motor, sleep and cognitive problems.
But the worst remains - I have only vague and fleeting emotions in response to strong external stimuli and my emotional memory is gone. I feel like they took my soul. My basic state is neutral and indifferent. When I would normally feel overwhelming love, joy, empathy, faith or sadness, anger, fear I can now detect feelings....but my brain feels like it's on aneasthetics.
Example - I had overwhelming love and a real strong bond with my child. On meds I felt nothing. Now I don't feel anything about his photos or not seeing him for a week. Only when we meet after a week and play and cuddle I can feel some comfort and slight happiness. When he's gone, all feelings are lost. I do sometimes feel real sadness about not being able to love him, ironically.
Does anyone know about fluoroquinoles and psychiatric meds? Does anyone know about mitochondrial repair? About recovery from antipsychotics?
I am willing to try the most experimental therapies - nothing to lose.
