Good evening,
I'm posting here because I'm totally desperate and your help could be really useful for me. In advance I am sorry for my English because I'm French. So here is my problem:
Naturally very anxious since I was child, I started smoking cigarette and weed 2 years ago. The high and the well-being was amazing and it makes me want to treat my psychological problems. So I consulted a psychiatrist a few days later who prescribed Paxil. 3 month after taking it I felt no difference and I decided to stop it.
During the SSRI discontinuation I feel like the high of Weed and Cigarette began to decline. And the more days pass it becomes more worse : No Euphoria.
I began to realize that I was being Anhedonic: No Sex Drive, No pleasure (go outside, watch tv.....), Nada.
I also have very low motivation, brain fog (low creativity/immagination) , obsessive negative thoughts,Anxiety, no excitement but desperation and frustration.
Physical symptoms : clammy hands, trembling muscles, pressure around the head and a completely stiff neck.
I tried many supplements and drugs but the well-being or euphoria' effect is completely blocked. Here the list. Nothing works:
-Alcohol: Only if I drink more than 10 glass I begin to feel a slight decrease in anxiety. But no mental or physical well-being.
-Weed: No euphoria, no relaxation, nothing appart be weirder and anxious. Pressure around the head and cognition worse.
-Cigarette : I dont take more pleasure in smoking. I stopped
-Additional Food/Supplement: tyrosine, 5-htp, Vitamine B/D/C, Fish Oil,Ginseng, St. John's Wort, Bacopa,Theanine,Gotu Kola, Shisandra, Ginko,Passiflore,Rhodiola and Phenibut (I tested a year ago and it made me feel great) but now I do not even feel anything also in high-dose (2g),
-Coke: No euphoria, heart beating faster, high anxiety and a worse pression around the head and cognitive abilities worst
-Ritalin: Liltle more confident but that apart, nothing .Heart which beats faster and worse cognition.
-LSD: I tried microdosing I felt nothing. A higher dose I was just more anxious and always this impression of head pressure and have the impression of being weird. But when I closed my eyes I had some hallucinations.
-SSRI/SNRI: Paxil, effexor, celexa, fluoxetine, effexor made me into a worse state. A true zombie.
-Low dose Antipsychotic: Solian Abilify and felt no effects.
-Benzo: Feel like a vegetable, no desire, only the desire to sleep and do nothing.
-Nootropic: Piracetam, Aniracetam,Noopept, Choline, Alpha GPC
I started CBT therapy and exercise every day but I do not feel positive impact. I feel that there is something that blocks positive feeling and I think this is definitely come from the SSRI Discontinuation.
Next try : CBD Oil, High dose INOSITOL, Low dose Lamictal, Low dose Ketamine, NSI 189.
Some suggestion please?
I Will keep you update