Hey everyone! I'm currently 20 years old, a finance student in college, and here is my story.
I have this habit of suspecting that I have a certain disease, then looking it up online, reading the symptoms, scare the hell out of myself, then find myself slowly developing these symptoms.
For about 2 months now I've noticed that I've been having concentration problems, at first knowing me, I googled my symptoms and somehow got to reading about dementia, early dementia Alzheimer's. I got scared to the point where i started reading about it nonstop, it got to the point that now whenever i google anything about it, i'd notice that these search results have been visited by me. I read a story about how this man in his late 20s got it and it was all over the news, so i started wondering, what if this is happening to me? I started doubting myself whether I have memory problems or not, at first i used to tell myself that if i have a problem recalling something then it is probably my concentration and all.
skip forward to early october, I went to my PCP and told him about this, he told me its all in my head and that if i keep thinking about this then I will definitely get it, which now, knowing me, scared me even more, i started thinking "what if now that I've been reading and thinking about it nonstop, I started developing it?" I honestly feel insane, I used to wake up every morning and these thoughts would just start up and they would go on the whole day. And now skip forward more, recently my concentration problems got so much worse, I read how one of the first signs of alzheimer's is that patients struggle finding words or joining conversations and now it keeps progressively getting worse with me trying to find the right words and I'm constantly like testing myself whenever I speak to someone just anticipating for the moment i struggle on a word. I don't know if I'm experiencing memory problems but I can notice that my memory is not as good as it used to be, I read about how early dementia causes patients to crave more food, and my appetite has been just growing more and more yet my weight is still the same if not even less now, I eat so much more than i used to, my mouth is constantly dry now which is a new thing, and i just dont feel normal, I'm still constantly thinking about this and I'm not sure what is happening with me.
recently I discovered Acetylcholine and how I could be deficient in it, but my question is, if im deficient then why are these symptoms only showing now after that i read about them? and also It scared me how some websites assured me that if I'm Acetylcholine deficient then I'm definitely getting Alzheimer's
P.s: honestly I don't know if i have memory problems, because i'm always constantly testing myself asking myself just facts that i went through the past week, like If i watch a movie, I constantly test myself if i still remember the character's names, and if i meet new people, i constantly focus so much on their names and keep testing myself trying to figure out if i forgot their names, some people are even surprised how good I am with small facts and with how good I have been at remembering names lately. Also I keep having so many headaches and my vision has been way off lately, and I feel like I'm dyslexic all of a sudden, with both reading and writing.
My mind just cant stop thinking and i think its exhausting me, I really don't know what to do.
Edited by MoRAM, 14 November 2016 - 05:35 AM.
