Time for an amygdala tickling update! & other new and hopeful connections!
1. I've been to the electro acupuncture 3 times. Though I consider it 2 times, as the 1st time one of the needles fell out, and another one was facing the wrong direction.
2. After the 3rd electro acupuncture my brain felt a bit fried. I didn't feel all with it afterward, but it could have been the combination of sleep deprivation I was experiencing that day.
3. Yesterday I was tickling my amygdalas using a different visualization. I imagine two beams of white light coming through my skull, down my frontal lobes, and into my amygdalas. I've also been using another visualization recently where my amygdalas shoot out blue balls rapidly (when imagined close up), and sometimes changing the view in my mind further away, so I see these blue balls shoot from my amygdalas and into and up my frontal lobes, and burst this energy like a firework, and imagine all the neurons lighting and sizzling up with electricity for a second, and I would do this repeatedly, shoot out blue balls and burst them in my frontal lobes.
4. This morning I was in pre-conscious awareness, and felt pure emotions and pleasure for a minute. It wasn't strong or overwhelming amazing. It was just a state of pure emotion and pleasure for a minute. Note this is the first time I've experienced this.
5. I have not had anymore emotional flashbacks! And I've been tickling enough to cause one. I consider this mostly cured, either by the electro acupuncture, or pushing through them and releasing enough with tickling.
6. When tickling, I've been getting slightly "pinching" electric signals go up my nerves in various parts of the body, but most notably my lower left neck, and my right arm. These happen occasionaly.
7. Tickling also causes these electric tingles/small shocks in my brain and amygdalas occasionally, whereas before it was more of a movement feeling.
8. My visualization skill has improved slightly. Less blankness and effort to tickle now, and I can make more complex visualizations, hence why I've been incorporating new imagery of the frontal lobes and energy going through them and into my amygdalas, or energy shooting out the amygdalas and into them and lighting up the frontal lobes neurons. This visualization is no where near the skill I once developed after my mini pop and practicing mnemonics, where I could conjure up a whole crystal clear 3D image, which had natural physics with it.
9. There have been times I've enjoyed music again, and even spent an hour blasting it out and singing along with it at home.
10. I am starting to like looking at trees and birds flying around when driving, there's a very slight joy in it.
11. I've noticed my vision and reality get a bit more clearer and brighter at times, and feels like your brain wakes up a little more. I can relate to this already, because my mini pop in 2011, your brain really really wakes up, and I realised we're all half asleep when awake and don't even know it.
12. I've had bursts of insight, clarity, and mental energy. One time I was writing down a theory for 5 hours non stop before my brain was finally tapped out!
13. Yesterday I made a new and very exciting connection. I was looking at youtube for videos of anhedonia, and one person said sarcosine (something I had never heard of) really helped their anhedonia. I then did some more googling into sarcosine and there are quite a few anecdotal reports of people using it to alleviate or completely cure their anhedonia! Sarcosine is a byproduct of glycine synthesize and degradation. It is used in conjunction with N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC), and has something to with NMDA. You can find a little bit more about it here https://profrontal.com/, though there's not too much information, but the combination was designed to help people with anhedonia (and maybe other problems) because of something it does with NMDA.
14. Hangover rebound is a term I've only yesterday just learnt was a thing. I know that in the past I've noticed euphoria and on top of the world feeling from some hangovers (when I wasn't practicing tickling), an effect I thought was strange at the time, but didn't realize other people got it either. I'm not sure exactly how it works, but need to look more into this.
15. I also wonder if there is a connection between my month of amygdala tickling (in 2011) and then my (first and only so far) mini pop while intoxicated, has something to do with this hangover rebound phenomenon. I think one of the current theories is it has something to do with NDMA, and if we go by the anecdotal reports of sarcosine & NAC which does work on NMDA (not sure how yet) and helps cure people of anhedonia, I think the intoxicated mini pop I experienced might all be linked. Don't forget this was after drinking and coming back from a club in a taxi, and if I know me back in 2011, I always made an effort to dance a lot (to try and build up confidence back then) which would always sober me up fast. So maybe I was experiencing a mini pop because of something to do with this hangover rebound and my prior month of amygdala tickling.
16. Oh I nearly forgot to mention, I'm getting some sexual pleasure build up just before ejaculation. More noticeable after doing a lot of tickling and I'm a little bit high when I engage in sexual activities, but could also be due to the electro acupuncture treatment. And no it's not just the cannabis, as there have been several previous experiences with weed which has resulted in no sexual pleasure the same as if I'm not high. I put this sexual pleasure build up around a 2 or 3. Don't forget I've suffered from ejaculatory anhedonia for 15 years now.
17. But I will say (and noted previously in this thread), sometimes cannabis enhances my amygdala tickling effects in different ways, most notably with changes of perception which has occurred the most often, the second effect less occurring is losing yourself in a train of thought and story with many images coming one after another, the one time last year where there was a strong swirling sensation in my amygdala area where I just stayed quiet for 15 minutes, and the recent (and one time) shooting slightly painful electric signals were going up my right leg and into my brain and my body was convulsing with it (I posted a anecdotal report of this happening to someone else from tickling who wasn't high from the old forum, check post #78). So while I say cannabis may make what should be normal amygdala tickling experiences more prominent, I don't really see it as a major enhancer or helps progress with tickling, and it's effect are hit and miss (most of the time nothing happens), with the change in perspective being the most likely occurrence.
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I am trying to hold off on my theories, and the fact I haven't had a mental burst or enough insights recently to write them clearly.
But my last theory basically looks at all psychology as existing entirely on the quantum realm. Your thoughts, pleasures, and emotions. And your brain is just a huge quantum receiver, and all your brain biology, neurotransmitters, receptors, and neurochemicals are designed to receive and interpret this quantum reality properly (emotions, thoughts, pleasure).
When you mess with your brain biology (receptors, neurotransmitters, neurochemicals), whether through recreational or medicinal drugs, you are changing how you receive and process this quantum reality. Hence why you might trip and hallucinate on psychedelics, or reality is slower and more wavy on cannabis, or the psychological changes you get from alcohol, or any psychological side effects you get from medicinal drugs.
The brain biology is designed to interpret reality as it was designed to do from the quantum realm, and messing with the biology, messes with the receiving. In a mentally "healthy" person this quantum realm is received more normally, while in a mentally ill person it isn't.
We already know both biology (drugs, nutrition, health) changes the psychology of people, and that you also biologically react in different ways from your own psychology (getting emotionally angry changes blood pressure and other biochemical responses for example).
Your subconscious and all negative emotional energy it holds onto through it's linkages, effect how you receive this quantum reality today (your psychology, thoughts, emotions, pleasure), and these subconscious linkages also have a biological knock on effect which is the reason your brain is not running at it's full potential (hence underused neurons). So when you suffer from anxiety, depression, anhedonia, or whatever mental illness, your signal from the quantum realm is being distorted/not properly received. It doesn't matter if your are biologically healthy, eat right, or exercise, you are still not psychologically healthy because the linkages of negative emotions are still held deep in your subconscious mind, and thus distort this reality and mental health.
This is why hypnosis working directly with the subconscious mind can make you happier, more confident, eliminate anxiety, etc... Because it tackles these issues by changing how your subconscious and brain interprets the quantum realm, by removing or converting the negative emotional linkages that was distorting or lowering this signal. So every time you discharge/neutralize/convert a negative emotional linkage in your subconscious, you feel mentally better, and the "past" no longer effects your psychologically anymore, because a better reception from the quantum realm is restored.
This also explains the synchronicity phenomenon you get from tickling, which was observed and the term coined by Carl Jung. I also think Lingo wrote a lot about 0 point instantaneous thought energy, which I haven't read into yet.
However to merely disregard this as foolish is foolish itself. As we have now firmly established that the quantum realm exists, and that quantum physics defy normal physical reality. So to theorize that our psychology or brain doesn't have anything to do with the quantum realm would be short sighted, and we should be open to this possibility that psychology is not merely biological in nature. Are not our thoughts and visual mind infinite?
I will go one step further and say all life and reality is interpreted from the quantum realm. DNA is the biological code that interprets the quantum realm, and also when genes turn on and off, they change the receiving signal from this realm and change your biology with it (hence why we go through stages in biology like growing or puberty or grey hair). If we genetically modified every single thing, insect, animal, plants, would not reality look a hell of a lot different? The same as when the faster we get to the speed of light, the more we can change the laws of time itself, physical reality. So who's to say we don't access this quantum realm through our mind, it could very well be a possibility.
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Regardless, I now look forward to getting hold of some sarcosine & NAC and see what it can do. If it can help cure or alleviate anhedonia in a lot of normal people (who don't tickle). Then if it can help my anhedonia even a little bit, as I'm already getting slight results of alleviation from anhedonia from tickling alone, then that would just be super!
THANK YOU LORD JESUS!
Edited by TempBannedNotComingBack, 16 May 2019 - 11:41 AM.